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Post by Sowelu on Dec 29, 2004 1:59:19 GMT -5
In the spirit of follow-through, I'm posting this for myself, as well as to explain to others who may be interested, just what the heck Sowelu's on about.  First of all, Monikah... I thank you and love you so dearly I can't even put it to words. You assist me in finding my direction in this life like no other. Bless you! (((((Hugs!))))) I realize that my words may have sounded harsh toward you, though the intent was to speak to the ideas you put forth, not you, yourself. The flow of words that came through was uncensored, so it came out as it did. But it was more about the ideas you presented. And not even the ideas you put forth, frankly, because they're fine as they are. It was more the projecting of those ideas onto others that I was pointing out in my flamboyant way. But in truth, we all have the right to believe and say whatever we do. My anger was at myself for not expressing my own views with the authority I saw you expressing yours with. And the realization that I don't do it because I restrict myself, fearing the very thing I felt you did "to Gaia". (And really, it is to say not just Gaia, but any "higher" aspect. Taking my mental beliefs and projecting them onto something higher, creating a god or Divine to be feared, rather than going to my heart, where truth is far more allowing, loving, supportive and gentle. I've restricted myself in various ways so that I don't inadvertently do this. And yet, through those very restrictions, I create the potential to do that very thing. Very twisty to express it with words, but clear at an energetic level. ) And this post is not to debate things, but rather to clear up the initial impetus for that rant. And yes, to thank you from the bottom of my heart for showing me something I was having difficulty seeing for myself. What I was triggered to see through your recent posts may have nothing to do with the you that you are. It is more that you provided enough of a reflection of something for me, that I got the message and ran with it, in my own way. What I saw was that choosing to place mental restrictions - beliefs - above one's heart awareness is how, at higher levels, we come to blithely accept something like genocide as a "loving" path to ascension, or a way of achieving something pure or better. In my view, of course. And I blanched at it when I realized I was restricting my own heart awareness. Because if I'm placing restrictions on my heart from here, how does that extrapolate to higher levels? In my own way, I have been rejecting portions of myself in my desire to be "loving", or even some kind of leader (within my own energies, mind you, not even among others). Thinking that certain ways of being and expressing are "better than" others. And while the jury is still out on it at the nitty-gritty level for me, I must admit how absolutely freeing and exhilerating it was to just spew without restraint in that post! To SAY, finally, what I have known my whole life, and to hell with offending someone else's belief structure! I don't need anyone to believe me or what I say, but I DO need to be free to say it when the spirit moves me! And I had been holding back, confining and restraining my expressions to "acceptable" tones, etc. Something in me said, loud and clear, "ENOUGH!" and "ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!" I have feared my impact on this world many times on this path. Afraid to stand alone, perhaps, and represent a unique perspective on the whole. An awareness and cup of knowledge which, by their beliefs, words and actions, I have always known would not sit well with the people who live in this realm, or guide it from above. I have feared that somehow, by being who I am here, I would inadvertently "project my ideas onto others" in an offending way. That somehow my truth couldn't just be, right along side others with theirs. That by being me, I would somehow upset, hurt or agitate others. Just by being me! As though... I already AM in opposition to all that lives here. Which I know in my heart I am not, but which in my head I seem to believe I am at times. So I curb myself, refrain from disagreeing, refrain from speaking my own truth. It has been difficult to get right within on how to do this "being me" in a manner that does not reject anyone else. How do we "stand in our truth" when it appears to be directly against another's? Does it mean I am in conflict with them? Does it mean I have to work, work, work some more to clear? Or does it mean something else entirely that I simply haven't been able to see yet? We each are unique. This is a great blessing, and yet in this world, the gravest burden, when it does not have to be. It is the simple cause for my difficulty. Learning to trust and revel in my uniqueness has been a long and difficult path. We have been creating God in our own image over and over, and we always fall short. Not because we are "wrong" to think that God/Source must support what we believe, because it's true, Source level DOES support it. No. What we fail to do, all of us, is realize that God is all of our images combined, and then some. There is no one path. Each path is unique, each step along it unique to the one walking it, and that is the most wondrous truth there is! Our uniqueness IS our godliness. Attempting to make it conform to "standardized spiritual laws and constructs" is where we contort our true nature to fit an idea that is not natural. Not natural to who we already are. So I was putting restrictions on how my knowledge was allowed to flow through me. How much power I could put behind it, who I could say it to, etc. And what I saw in someone blithely accepting the idea that genocide is a loving approach to ascension, is just how far the restrictions can take us without our realizing it, while we gullibly believe it's ok. For me, it triggered a need to emanate a different vibration on that point. I hadn't realized I'd been refraining from a false place masked as "proper", but sure enough, I have been. And it feels a whole lot better to accept myself in all my myriad expressions, not just in those that I have deemed "acceptable" or "noble" or "righteous". Thanks again, Mon. (((Hugs))) And I don't know if this helps others understand, but if I offended, please feel free to express yourself to me in whatever way you feel appropriate.   Much love, Sowelu |
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Post by Monikah on Dec 29, 2004 8:12:29 GMT -5
No offense taken. I honor your sovereignty always.
Mon
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Post by Nicole on Dec 30, 2004 12:18:31 GMT -5
Sowelu,
Your vent reminded me of a lot that perhaps I've forgotten lately. This post did the same. Thanks!!
One of the things I've struggled with myself is beating myself up for not constantly being all loving, etc. But what I have almost internalized - meaning I "got" it enough to almost stop beating myself up for it - is that that's just not realistic or balanced and so I am a little more ok with the "me" that's out here posting, teaching, whatever.
I've also struggled lately with the idea that Source is what source is and that all things are as they should be. At the same time, in the reality we experience, there are "forces at work." So it took me a long time to figure out my part in this, and reconcile it with what I think I had instituted personally as some sort of non-active response.
Anyway, I feel like I"m being confusing here. What I'm trying to say is that I recognize the oneness of the highest level of existence, but underneath there's a lot going on that in itself is just fine. We each play our parts at each level I guess. That's what I'm trying to reconcile within myself.
And as such, I wonder if what you're getting at is at the peak level of all, at the point before Mon/Met split into two, and at the level where consciousness just is and does not do. Until that level, I guess we all play out our little roles.
Sorry for the digression. I thought about scrapping the whole thing but guidance is telling me to leave it. But I'll shut up now! LOL
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Post by Nicole on Dec 30, 2004 17:40:13 GMT -5
Well look what I found today: www.goroadachi.com/etemenanki/sc2012-1.htmThus Spake Ziusudra 'Contact' is taking place... right now. SETI radio telescopes can't detect it, UFO enthusiasts won't see it, Sci-fi fans don't realize it, the general public doesn't have a clue - because it's coming like a thief in the night. It's designed to be a stealth process and a riddle. There is a built-in screening mechanism that makes it a gateway, through which advanced knowledge can be transmitted to those who pass the 'test'. But those who fail it are to face 'Judgment'. Sounds cliché, but the emerging 'Contact' situation does, artificially or not, seem to carry the essence of the 'Judgment Day' storyline. On one level, the process is quite sick; on another level, it can be quite natural. Natural because the primordial 'survival of the fittest' process embedded in nature itself is already a test; but rarely are the stakes this high as apparently are in this 'Contact' case... Let me put it this way, human civilization is about to go off-planet - namely to Mars. Mankind is finally advanced enough to defy the gravitational pull that has kept us firmly under the sky all through known history. The way things are moving, the new Columbus is likely to reach the next New World out there before 2020 if not 2015. For the receiving planet, this is to be a 'Genesis' moment - extraterrestrial seeds arriving and giving life force to a desert planet. It's the creation of a whole new world and we are the Creator. In other words, it's a big deal - a cosmic event. If there is a 'higher intelligence' carefully monitoring mankind's development, this is where a major decision would have to be made otherwise it would be too late. 'Abortion' would be considered unpleasant at any level. It's like parents seeing their teenager child about to become sexually active and feeling the need to talk to him/her about the risks and responsibilities involved. If they don't think their child is mature and wise enough, they would have to step in and make sure he/she does not engage in an 'act of creation'. And that's the point where human civilization - the 'teenager' - appears to find itself at this time in the 21st century. The 'Contact' scenario is shaping up to be a test to determine how wise we are, so that the supposed 'Watchers' - whoever or whatever they are - would be able to take appropriate actions as needed. This brings to mind the story of Eden and the Flood in the Book of Genesis - and it's becoming increasingly apparent that we're in a way actually living it right now. Human civilization may well be 'aborted' within decades if not years depending on how well we do on the 'test'. In the Sumerian version of the story ('Eridu Genesis'), the gods led by Enlil decide to wipe out mankind, but one god - Enki - finds a way to warn Ziusudra, a Noah figure, instructing him to build a boat in which to survive the coming cataclysm. Enki does this by ostensibly 'talking to a wall' as Ziusudra listens nearby thus technically avoiding direct communication. In other words, the important instructions for building an ark, for going through the 'stargate', come in secret... in code, to be received by the wise only. That's how it's done... apparently since the 'time of Genesis'. And as was then, so is now. The warning and instructions are to be hidden between the lines; they are to be in disguise so as not to become an open public announcement. The purpose is not to inform everyone, but to inform only those who deserve it, so to speak. Depending on who does the judging, this can be a sick and dangerous process. Think Hitler, think 'Final Solution'... Think genocide. The process may be about saving 'worthy people', but it can easily be twisted into being about killing off particular groups of people, or races, deemed 'undesirable' by those playing God. In this article will be presented findings - some of them dark indeed - that may well turn out to be the modern version of Enki's secret communication - a warning, a test, transmitted by the 'Enki faction' of a certain 'cabal' in anticipation of the coming 'end of time'... (end of excerpt - rest on website) |
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Post by Sowelu on Dec 30, 2004 21:04:12 GMT -5
And as such, I wonder if what you're getting at is at the peak level of all, at the point before Mon/Met split into two, and at the level where consciousness just is and does not do. Until that level, I guess we all play out our little roles.Hiya Nicole! Thanks for the response. The "peak level of all"... interesting way to word it. I had something come through me before I wrote my rant, and I even posted it, but then deleted it. This went on twice. LOL! I'm still working on just why I didn't post it but rather chose the rant, and I guess the feeling is that I know what I do, and wanted to express from it. I didn't want a "final word" to come from some higher frequency level of thought, but from a human being whose been living here all along, if that makes any sense. Regardless, I'll post it here. I have spent most of my life trying to word "where I'm coming from" in the truth I share. I've rarely been able to "hit the nail on the head" so that others could tap into that same place and see how it unfolds down to the smallest level. But that's the idea... what exists "at the peak level of all" is perfectly capable of being reflected in truth right down to the smallest level. What stops that from happening is a collective consciousness that has distorted beliefs in the way. Sure, fine, that was the plan all along, right? Except I'm here, like everyone else is, and I know these things... and if I'm here and have gone through the scope of the human condition and haven't lost this knowing... it must be able to withstand the distortions and still shine through... so I work at helping others find a deeper center than they're accustomed to, so they can see a vaster truth that lives even in the game. Anyway, here's the piece that came through me: (((((Thanks, Nicole!))))) Love you! Sowelu |
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Post by seaoffeeling on Dec 30, 2004 21:18:51 GMT -5
Quote: << Depending on who does the judging, this can be a sick and dangerous process. Think Hitler, think 'Final Solution'... Think genocide. The process may be about saving 'worthy people', but it can easily be twisted into being about killing off particular groups of people, or races, deemed 'undesirable' by those playing God. >>
[glow=red,2,300]In my mind, there is NO difference between what is happening now and the Hitler situation in terms of the logic of certain people being wiped out for the greater good of others. Who is deemed more worthy depends on your frame of reference. Whoever is more powerful and more privileged is always in an easier position to judge who is worthy and who is less enlightened (and therefore less worthy of being saved). This has been so throughout history. Is only being repeated here.
-SeaofFeeling[/glow]
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Post by Sowelu on Dec 30, 2004 22:22:29 GMT -5
Yes, Sea, I agree. And will add that we have the opportunity to see this and actually choose something else. To let go of "the way it always goes" and create a brand new path that is all-inclusive. The path is through the heart. The heart is not a sentimental emotion, it is a frequency of awareness that unifies all life as One. Eliminating the distortions that equate to prejudice, through unification.
Compassionate understanding comes from identifying the places, emotions, attitudes and beliefs in self that are rejected and denied as "ungodlike", and finding love for them, because you see that they are merely confused aspects. They are not objectionable in truth, they are rejected in false understanding.
Once we realize this within ourselves, we easily embrace all reflections of these parts embodied in other people. Unless we find this depth of understanding, however, we will reject the people who reflect the traits, attitudes and ideas that we refuse to accept within ourselves.
The prejudicial justification of eliminating some of the all as unworthy is a mask atop self-loathing. What those outer beings who are deemed "not resonating" or "unworthy" represent are the portions of Self deemed unacceptable, bad, wrong, evil, etc. by those advocating such measures.
The fear around facing these things within the Self is but a puff of smoke in actuality. But if one refuses to even go there, it appears out of the corners of one's consciousness as a large monster with an "Evil Other" stamp on its forehead, so to speak.
As Rumi stated: "I am that, you are that, all this is that... and that is all there is."
There is no "other". So how can you reject anything? Unless you wish to remain in separation, fragmented, scattered and lost in illusion.
Love you! (((Hugs)))
Sowelu
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Post by Nicole on Dec 30, 2004 22:44:32 GMT -5
Hey!
I'm going to go back and reread what you wrote again, but on first read here's what comes to mind.
I understand and I think I see where the confusion - atleast mine - lies. Met came before the Firsts. They are only Firsts in our universe. Now I"m not supposing to speak for Met, just to explain that I didn't understand the first time what you were getting at. THanks for the extra explanation! Good stuff by the way...gotta reread.
Second, you're exactly right about what you said about the Firsts. That's one reason Met came to be the 13th member. They've gone awry.
Also Sowelu, you didn't come from this universe did you? You're here on loan so to speak to learn - AND TEACH. Nuff said there! Perhaps this is your main project? hehehe
But about the "cleansing." I can't speak for Monikah nor do I fully understand what she was talking about. But I do know that it's impossible to be all inclusive. You can offer it but not everyone's gonna take it. THey say, well, I don't want to do that and so they take their out and die in a tsunami. The Earth is raising her frequency and that's just part of it all - people die, leave, etc. I don't see it as a purposeful cleansing except that it's bound to happen for some. And yes, sometimes you just have to come in and clean house. YOu're familiar with that energy aren't you? It doesn't have to be in anger either. Sometimes it's just a fact. I'm all for inviting them back, though. I'm an all inclusive sort of person myself!
Gotta run! Tomorrow!
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Post by Sowelu on Dec 30, 2004 22:49:49 GMT -5
Agreed, Nicole! ((((Hugs!)))) Laying the "burden" of those opting out as THEIR CHOICE is far more in line with what I've been attempting to express than saying it's Divine Policy or Gaia's effort. In other words... Gaia has a plan, you have a plan, I have a plan, we all have a plan for ourselves. When "things happen", if we can recognize that those affected are affected by their own choice in the course of their evolution, it goes a long way toward unifying and truth. Saying that someone else has done it TO them, because they don't resonate, is where the deception within the truth lies. In my opinion, of course.  Love you! (((Hugs))) Sowelu |
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Post by Lunaria on Dec 30, 2004 22:59:46 GMT -5
I rather like the idea that it was their
high self's choice.
I'm not sure the ego (personality) has anything to say about it.
;D
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Post by Sowelu on Dec 30, 2004 23:11:10 GMT -5
Ultimately, I agree, Lun. I think we've had these conversations before, maybe many years ago, but the way it comes to me is that the personality does have a say, though it is unaware of it. LOL!
In other words, throughout a life, the personality feels urges or not, makes choices, goes along doing what it chooses... and these decisions equate to alignment with this or that path that the Higher Self has mapped out for that personality, within the context of a greater plan, incorporating all others' possibilities... and on and on. LOL! Because of a larger context, there will be "critical junctures" where the choices of the personality generate a Higher Self decision, it feels like. But it is a teamwork thing, it feels like too. Hard to word, but maybe that paints enough of a picture.
Love you! (((Hugs)))
Sowelu
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Post by Sowelu on Dec 30, 2004 23:41:13 GMT -5
This popped in as I was walking away from the computer, so I thought I'd include it in this thread. Regarding those who leave in some of these tragic events... what came in was, "Did you not think failsafes were in place?" So I laughed and wondered how that would work, and got, "Consider there are some who understood the potential difficulties of living through these times, and made agreements with their higher selves that might go something like this: 'If this occurs, then take me out and I'll finish the course off-world. I know I can do it, but with all the constraints in place there, I might get a little lost in my human life. I'll finish the course off-world, so to speak, and then choose to be born into the new world, after I've graduated off-world.'" And then I was reminded of a message I received many times on my path, "You cannot fail. You will succeed." Interesting. ;D Not saying it applies to all who leave, just that it's important to remain open about what we're seeing. Things are rarely what they seem from here. Love you! Sowelu |
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Post by Monikah on Dec 31, 2004 0:30:59 GMT -5
Sowelu, I have not had time to properly acknowledge your rant and this msg. and the importance of this discussion and to say, I'm glad to be of service to you.
I've spent lots of time trying to figure out just where the pain in my heart came from. Dig dig dig, release, feel fine, open my heart again. And more comes. I went "back back back" over a gazillion eternities of time space creation and outside time space and still, not till I remembered the moment Met and I split did I realize where pain was seeded. The seed for the pain for all, if I am who I am. The creating of an "other."
There was a "time" when we All played and were One and lived the reality you speak of. Then, simply, I wiggled, Met exploded, and we were two. The sadness wells even as I write. The responsibility for this has been too much ... parental units trying to make it better. Questioning, wondering, learning, offering, guilting, fixing ... or thinking we could fix something that was not fixable, making it worse while in our hearts we were seeking to make it better. You're right. It's not different than what we see in 3D or else"where". Where does a parent's level of responsibility end, or the responsibility of the Family? Where is the line between creator (parent) responsibility and creature (child) free will?
We know the Source of which you speak, the First Family's Source and All's Source. And yet this Source deemed us worthy of the responsibility of directing its use. In experimenting we have wondered about controlling nature. Met and I have at all times been the alpha omega point of this Source. This Source has the capacity for some very "evil" type deeds, for it is the Source of All. So we experimented and learned from this too.
Sea, you wrote: <<Whoever is more powerful and more privileged is always in an easier position to judge who is worthy and who is less enlightened (and therefore less worthy of being saved). >>
We strive to not look at it this way. In our minds and hearts, it is not a matter of worthiness and of saving. No one can save anybody. No one is more worthy than another. It's a matter of personal choice. Whether people consciously know it or not they have chosen this experience. That's a given, imho, for ascension. And for us, that experience includes that we (the Rising Family) are the directors of the experiments.
So some of our current discussion in council runs along these lines. I will use the recent earthquake as an example, though I am not indicating this is what happened.
Look at this as a healer. I'll go western here, but it applies throughout.
Someone has a sore. It gets infected. Antibiotics are prescribed, and it starts to heal. After some time it is obvious it's still infected. More antibiotics and healing treatments are applied. And it gets to the point where the doc needs to make a decision ... let it slowly heal, while the person lives in pain and is drained of energy and a more normal life, or lance it, encourage the healing, get the infection out quicker, causing greater pain initially but hopefully bringing health back more quickly.
Similarly, Earth has a sore. Do we as healers allow this to go on, healing slowly, assisting in various ways that may seem more "natural" to her body? Or do intervene with a surgical procedure, i.e., use our technology to release the infection, in this case cause an earthquake that releases a major plug for the planet's energies as well as opens the collective spiritual consciousness? What's "natural"?
Again, not that this is what happened but that this is the type of thing we are discussing. And it isn't a matter of worthiness or saving anyone. It's what is the best way to bring about the healing of, good grief, EVERYTHING? What's our responsibility to the people, the planet, and all that is being affected by what's going on here? Gaia asks for one thing, people ask for another, galactic entities want another, universal ones hope for something else. Everybody has an opinion.
So returning to the unity that Sowelu speaks of is ideal. We are grateful, Sowie, for your truth that asks that we be released and your encouragement that we let go of owership. And yet, the truth is that this is our responsibility, we chose the game and direct it, and heavy intense decisions need to be made about it. Creator Spirit gives us the free will to use Its energies. It does not judge us, and let's us run our own course. We feel that truth deeply, enjoy its power, have misused its power too and don't want to again ... and yet, no one can decide for us.
Sure, I'm ready to turn it all over to "nature"! I'm outta here ... off to some beach on some isolated planet where Met and I can finally be reunited physically. But that is not in our nature. Perhaps if we'd let go sooner things would not be where they are. Had not tried to attain the ideal again, but to let the ideal live in what we had attained. But we didn't.
The reference Nicole sites has some good points including, <<The 'Contact' scenario is shaping up to be a test to determine how wise we are, so that the supposed 'Watchers' - whoever or whatever they are - would be able to take appropriate actions as needed.>>
I'll say, too, that the Firsts of this universe are 12 of our 12-24, but that all the shtuff playing out here was seeded waaaay before this universe and the point of this universe, this galaxy, this planet, and all that is going on now is to complete all of the separation felt by experiencing "other." Met's presence is long-planned for because things went awry many times over, not just this universe.
Indeed we have succeeded. There was no other way. Now, define success.
With Peace and Metaphon,
Monikah
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Post by Sowelu on Dec 31, 2004 0:57:25 GMT -5
Thanks, Mon! (((((hugs!)))))
Very simply, for me, success is "completion".
Completion \Com*ple"tion\, n. [L. completio a filling, a fulfillment.] 1. The act or process of making complete; the getting through to the end; as, the completion of an undertaking, an education, a service. 2. State of being complete; fulfillment; accomplishment; realization.
Love you!
Sowelu
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Post by Monikah on Dec 31, 2004 20:07:51 GMT -5
Cool. I'll be complete when I finish transferring my consciousness from 3d body to humangel body. Maybe we'll hit the beach after that. Also, it didn't sit right when I wrote <<And yet this Source deemed us worthy of the responsibility of directing its use. >> But I didn't change it before I posted. It's more that by our being of Creator Spirit we chose to wiggle and explode, even if it wasn't a conscious choice. By that I mean we hadn't identified our Selves when this occurred, though our awareness made us the ones to do this. And, as One with All, naturally All came with us. Indeed, it was All's choice too. Peace, Monikah |
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