Hi

[Nicole]

Just popping in to say hi. I have been very much within lately, some by my own design and some due to life circumstances which I can't discuss online now but will soon I hope, assuming they all get resolved! I will say that my stepfather died suddenly almost 3 weeks ago, and since then life has certainly changed in a lot of ways here close to home. I'll be online more next week maybe, but if I'm not please know I think of all of you here a lot and love all of you, and have a happy valentines!

Love,
Nicole

[LilliHart]

HI NIcole,
Funny thing you should write this note now. I too have been far, far away inside and have just had the 'urge' to come here tonight for the first time in ages.

When I was 20 I read a book called The Chrysalids by John Wyndam. It was all about a group of young people who survived a holocaust of earth changes or nuclear war or something...can't remember the details. They all lived in a place called Zealand which if I recall was somewhere near where the UK is today.

In the story which I only remember bits and pieces of all these young people in their teens and 20's were highly telepathic. And they were also the 'norm' in their society. There were a lot of people also who were mutated from the nuclear radiation and they were the outcasts.

I believe I remember that one of the young telephathic girls fell in love with a mutant fellow and in the end left her 'powers' behind and went to live the life of the uninitiated.

Well i know that's not a great review, but that is the part I remember. And it' s mostly because that is how i am feeling these days. It's like I have chosen to walk away from my woo woo world and all that is in it. I know some of you will understand.

When the world was younger and so was I, it was an exploration and a thrill to be unfolding into awareness. and it was scarey because I was the only one around doing it. I was truly the outcast in those days.

Then as time wore on and I got older and became more and more deeply steeped in my awakening and my knowingness a few people would show up now and then and I didn't feel so alone.

And then the third wave started to wake up! And every Tom, Dick and Harry started spouting New Age stuff ad nauseum. And it is getting worse and worse and I am crawilng into myself deeper and deeper to get away from it.

I'm involuting back into self. Crawling into my own cave and pulling the sage brush in to cover the opening. The last thing I want to hear is another book study, another lecture, another person telling me New Age-isms. I don't want to forever be reminded that the world is a mirror and I am being reflected in it with dirty hair!

So I have lots of experience in being and outcast and it's a good thing because I am using my old skills again...not as though I ever really was one of the popular kids, but there were better times.

My focus now has been on correcting all the misconceptions I have of 3D, healing my body which is taking a damn long time and learing to walk on the earth if not being of the earth. I am not spending much time in woo woo ville or thinking about my home in the stars because if I do I will kill myself with yearning. I am so tired of yearning and lamenting and remembering.

Now I am grasping daily for reasons to look ahead and allow myself to be here now. Old book title no? HAHA

Frankly it sucks...to use my much maligned form of expression.

So that is what has been keeping me peering up my own secret passage to awareness and that is what has kept me busy and away from here.

Anyway, it's nice to have a place to visit once in a while when the earth gets too hot to walk upon.

Happy Valenties to you too Nicole and to all on EC.

Love,
Lili

[ADMIN]

Wow, Nicole!
Hope everything works out.
For myself, everyone around me or mostly of people I know are many leaving thru very sad illnesses. I can't pin point it but most of them all have the same symptoms.
Chemtrails are getting active around here as well, cancer is the mode now, and everything just seems like it's crumbling for many.
hum...

[AgeA]

Hi guys! I have not been active online much for the past six months. I understand completely what you saying Nicole and I love reading what Lili write about her life. I have gone myself through such period of time as I have been alone in every sense of this word for about 10 years of my life. Except for the last year and the year before as so many things had happened in my life and they are still happening.
Some like my mother almost getting killed in a robbery and now she just came back from a hospital where she stayed for almost a month. Her depression, nervousness and sickness partially result of what had happened to her as It was certainly accelerated by the accident.
I had to be with her... I can not possible tell online all the feelings that I feel now and all the emotions I had experienced in the last year. I would have to write a book. It was like an emotional 'hellacoaster'...and this year does not look like it would be better, certainly not easier.

Believe it or not I wish now for the life I had before where I lived life of solititude and peace. It is not such a bad thing.

Liliahnah are you still living somewhere in the South America? Are you still all by yourself? I wish you write more about you. I love reading your stories.

[LilliHart]

Hi Guys,
Well this must be my monthly drop in to EC from my life. Again I felt called to come visit tonight.

Yes AgeA, I am still living in Central America and yes I am mostly alone. I have made some firends here but it's not a good fit...at least i am not a good fit for this place.

funny thing is that I never knew how much of an American I was until I wasn't. HAHA! But boy do I yearn for all things United States-ian.

You know I'm in deep, deep doo doo when I get homesick and my heart and mind yearn for WALMART! Holy shit! I dream about wandering around the isles picking up anything and everything I want and it all being there at my fingertips. That is SICK!

Yes life here is simpler if you make it that way, and much cheaper to live which is nice and on the surface it sure looks like paradise with palm trees and flowers everywhere...but beware...

Paradise is only where you feel free! It's only where YOU find YOUR personal contentment and peace and joy and freedom. For me right now paradise is Walmart, a NY Deli, a real honest to goodness healthfood store, Wall street with screaming NYers on the floor of the market...

Paradise is the Rocky Mountains, the desert, anywhere in the US of A and even will all the crap in the air, the big brothers peeping in and all around, George and his merry med and Anna Nicole Smith dying and crying on my TV screen a hundred times a day, paradise is where I feel at home.

And this is a nice place to vacation...so to let you all know, we are going home soon...not sure when, whenever we raise the money and make the arrangements. But we decided about a month ago to throw in the Latin towel, toss the palm trees back to the locals, eat our pride and the crow from the back end and head back to the states.

So one of these days you'll hear about the move.

Ciao for now, ya'll. Ah, those lovely American isms...LOL

Lili

[AgeA]

Lili I know exactly what you feel when you say you miss Walmart and the atmosphere. I am not in the US at the moment but I miss it already. Only when you lose something you realize how much it is worth to you. America is an illusion just like all things here on Earth but it is illusion I created or at least actively participated in its creation and I still love America. Bush didnt kill America that I love for me...Come back Lili! I am sure it wont be easy for you the transition etc but it will be exciting as life will be exciting in the US especially in the coming years. South America is nice place too I am sure for a vacation that is

[Nemue]

Hi everyone, like so many of you I haven't been around here of late. My world like the world of so many others is somewhat out of control at present. Too much to do, too little time and no time for myself. Work is becoming more intense with longer and longer hours and my regular travel doesn't help.

It was my birthday yesterday so I am hoping that my birth year change will see the start of a more restful and balanced year. Perhaps you think? I do so wish...

Blessings to all of you.

[LilliHart]

Happy Birthday Nemue. I decided this year if I was going to stay here in a body that I am going to celebrate the day I came into it. So now birthdays are big things to me. Hope you had a good one.

Love,
Lili

[Nicole]

Wow, it was so good hearing from you all about your lives! EAch and every one of you! Kate, I have thought of you lately and you too AgeA, and MirRA I've wondered what you were up to. I actually just talked to Lili via email.

What interesting times we're having. Out of control is certainly how I would characterize my last 2+ months, and it also revolves around my mother. I think I can volunteer some stuff now, but not all, for fear of someone reading this and possibly having to go to court. But, my stepfather died very suddenly on Jan 20. 21st technically. He had liver problems and no one knew they were so bad. He hemmoraged internally near the liver and they could not stop the bleeding. It was very traumatic. I had breakfast with him that morning and let Erin stay there for the day. 10 minutes before we got there to pick her up he went back to the bedroom with what we thought were diahhrhea cramps. He called my mom on her cell from the bedroom, and we left and 3 minutes later (or maybe even less), she called to say come we've got to take him to the hospital. When we got there we called the ambulance. He went down that quick and never regained consciousness. To put it generally, he had not taken care of the business of providing for my mother legally (longer story, for when it is settled). Since then we have had many emotional and legal issues and life is unable to return to normalcy until it is settled. It's much more complicated than that, but that will have to be all for now. It's a freaking mess though.

And all in the middle of it I was merging with my monad. Kareana and Nicole together are Anna i'elle. I was christened with that name by Michael himself, and it was in honor of Anna Nicole. He said she shined a light on much of the nastiness of this world and did a great service, and that it was destined.

I've undergone changes in both Self and understanding. I have not posted much if any here, because I am not sure this is the forum for what I need to bring to this world. Perhaps I will reconsider that, but right now I'm honestly just trying to get a grip on every day life before it completely runs away with me. It's a struggle each day.

I am here in heart though - I love you all!
NIcole

[AgeA]

We are with you too, Nicole. I know how tough it is to be in this world and possess high level of consciousness and they do tend to collide. It is tough for all of us I think. Also, it is hard to lose people who were very close to you. I know because my grandma just passed away twenty days ago. I just hope that this present (degenerate) veiled human reality woudnt need to last for too long and we will collectively decide to end it sooner so that something new can begin in its place. I am very tired of all the drama...How about you guys?

[Nicole]

I have come to almost hate drama, yet try not to attach that emotion to it. Right now I'm in a freaking reality tv show (tha'ts how it seems!) and I cannot get away from it. It's a learning experience - how to react and act in the midst of it. But it sucks - go away drama!!!

[ADMIN]

Nemue, Happy Belated Birthday!
I hope you enjoy and sabor every minute of this transission we are all going thru as you.
Nicole, I as you have been going thru so much that I have been low key on the forum as well. my old frineds are all dying away, it feels like everyone I know is leaving. My mother in law is having a huge battle with cancer is constantly in and out of the hospital. I have no idea until when but she is hanging on.
It's really freaky to see your love ones leaving and the thought of left alon is something that hits one in the face.
My boss yesterday feel ill with a heart attack, and with the emotional coaster ride it is kind of hard adjusting to this new mode of pain, sadness, and see the surrounding becoming empty sort of to say.
New things are happening as one feels like we are stepping into the yellow brick road to find our way home.
The obstacles are challenging and at times one feels we have no where to turn to for advise, but just going inside has been comforting. Then there is this joy that over comes one as we know this is the process and that we are indeed entering a new age of living and being. With all this going on , the joy take me into the new light in my consciousness while the old still brings in the old habits of emtional drives of 3 D. I guess this is the crossing roads?
Happy, then worried, sad, feeling lost in direction...LOL! Geez!
I do however feel great peace now and do look at this completely different from the way I did before. I feel that things are the way we chose them to be, or better yet ahve allowed them to be because we invited them into our circel once we agrees with the vibration of the same.
I just wanted to shre this with you guys, because as others I have been away. Not because I don't want to come here but because one needs time to obsrob all this new energy and learn to master and play with it until we adquire control.

[ADMIN]

I also wanted to point out, SOWELU has kept this board running with her efforts & energy . She truly is a gift to us. We love you sweetheart and will always be eternally grateful for being a pillar of light in this place.

[AgeA]

I want to say thank you, Sowelu too! I agree completely with what Mirra says.

Mirra I am afraid there will be no 'control' to speak of in the future times. I am not saying it will be complete chaos but indeed in the new reality you cant take nothing with you. There is nothing to hold onto to and it can be scary. I know for once that in order to travel from one place to other you have to leave all behind except you Heart. You cant take nothing with you but your Heart. The heart is the Gate literally as energy works in very straightforward way.

This also applies to what Monikah said about future. The present humanity based upon Adam Kadmon genetype will be gone. It will be no more as no cultures no belief systems no religions no nothing will make it in the future reality. I am not talking about the immidiate future of humanity as in the next hundred years. There is possibility for it to continue longer but I remember Monikah questioned if it will continue for much longer. Personally I dont think so...I hope all the souls born here woudnt need this to play for that long. Monikah also talked about the era of the Universal 'human' but even that is not the end I know...I just feel in my Heart there will be a lot more even after that way in the future when things will collide.

[Sowelu]

((((Awwww THANKS you guys!)))))

I do appreciate your kind words, though I am concerned I caused some to feel obligated to say something when they wouldn't ordinarily, and that has been bothering me. So I'll just say that all I was hoping to understand recently was whether or not keeping this place going was worth it, if it was helping anyone in any way.

And I got my answer in the affirmative, and I thank you all!! Now that I'm aware, I will continue as best as I can making posts and keeping the light on here, you know? But please don't feel a need to post out of obligation, ok?

Ok. 'Nuf said there.

And I can't believe I missed your birthday, Kate! I'm so sorry!!

Belated
Happy Birthday, Nemue!

It's great to see you all here, I must say. Energies I haven't felt mixing and mingling here in a while. I just had a family reunion recently with my family of origin and it was lovely, and this thread kind of has that same feel. YAY!

Tons of love and gratitude for you all,
Sowelu