Post by whitequeen on Aug 15, 2004 14:48:29 GMT -5
Hi all,
This is White Queen/Diamonda speaking. I'm writing to you to answer some questions and explain to you a decision I have come to.
I know there are a few questions to Diamonda that remain to be answered on the Diamonda thread. It's been quite difficult for me to get to the board recently and to answer those questions. I'd like to explain why. There are a few reasons.
First, I have been very busy in the 'world' lately doing my work and focusing on my business and my eBook focus group which begins today. It has taken a great deal of my time and energy. And I have recently chosen to put more of my attention on my work in 3D/4D where I have been called, which leaves me less time to come to the EC board to read and respond to messages.
Second, and probably more important, I have come to a realization that I would like to share with you.
Susan and Diamonda are a soul braid as you know. That being said, they/we function as one expression through a human vehicle this time around. When Lunaria asked me to 'channel' Diamonda for the board I agreed to do it as an experiment. At the time my intention was to allow her the individual expression that she sometimes desires and often expresses in a variety of my posts and teachings...only not under a separate moniker. This experiment was one which I had fantasized for a long time so this was a good opportunity for me. I had always wanted to be a 'channel' for a higher being. LOL.
Well now I realize I AM a higher being and that my years of keeping my field blocked to certain energies have made it nearly impossible for any being other than the one/s living in this body to come through. Instead of stepping aside and allowing some unknown entity who allegedly calls themselves what ever to come through me, I allow my own inner knowingness to come through in the form it does best. There is no need for me to channel a higher being as there are two of us higher beings already here and ready to impart our knowledge, wisdom, humor and whatever else comes out of us at any given time.
I have found it cumbersome and not entirely truthful allowing Diamonda her separate stage to answer your questions. You see, we function as ONE on this plane. Regardless of whose name is placed on the posts I am always conscious as Susan and never does Diamonda 'take over' as in a more typical channeling session with other entities or beings. It may be true that you sense a different tone or vibe when she speaks but that is because we choose allow that aspect to surface rather than when We/I am in my 'silly' or 'straight talking' aspect. But it is still all 'me', Susan the humanoid.
To allow Diamonda her own individual expression 'on call' is to forcibly separate the braid between us and to disallow myself my portion of the contribution to our joint expression and to unbalance us and our agreement to live and communicate as one being called Susan in humanoid form. It is also physcially debilitating.
And then there is another aspect that I feel is important to address. It is the seeming need for many of you to place a greater emphasis or importance on information that is 'channeled' by an allegedly higher being or entity or angel or disembodied soul who is supposed to know/be more and have a different point of view. Well, in my case this is a fallacy.
What exists in Susan are two well heeled, knowledgeable beings who are able to bring in tons of information and ideas, vibrations and solutions to your questions and problems from mult-dimensions. I/We span all 13 dimensions at any given time and are able to access information from all dimensions. That doesn't mean we will always be able or willing to respond to or answer questions on all the dimensions, but the access is there and I/WE often use it. There is no need for us to take on the facade which would 'convince' you that this 'bit of information is more real' or more valid because it is from the 'other side'.
Most of the time I/We live and exist in 3D/4D because that is the world around us that we need to address, live in, work in, relate in, function in. These dimensions require a unification of both mental and emotional selves in all their good and bad glory as well as the physical.
There IS NO OTHER SIDE. It's all one and it's only a perception that there is something else other than what is NOW and in the present. It's a matter of an individual's choice, intention, frequency and vibration where each of us is at any given moment in relation to which side or which dimension you or I are in.
In other words, my brain/being works just fine in this body and is no better or worse if it is called Diamonda, Susan, White Queen or anything else for that matter. You can call me anything you like, just don't call me late for dinner!
And there is another reason I have not come to the board of late and perhaps it is as great a reason as any other.
I have felt like I have been baited by several EC members. Whether as Diamonda or White Queen, I have felt like my personal integrity and credibility has been questioned, challenged and baited and I will not be drawn into either defending my point of view, or arguing about how I see life, live life or deal with my stuff.
Just because I may have a soul braid with a non-humamoid being doesn't mean that I am perfect or know everything. I/We are here on the 3D and that in and of itself is proof that there is still work to be done for both of us. But, also remember that there is a great challenge just by virtue of being a soul braid and I have agreed to live that challenge and do the best I/WE can.
And I must tell you that MY part of the braid, which is feline or Paschat is just as non-humanoid as is Diamonda's Insectillian. Both of us are genetically pure but as our expression on this plane warrants, we are here as 'humanoid' and thus experiencing our genetic lines as crossed or hybridized in some manner. As a result we express as both forms interchangeably.
We have both agreed to live as one and express as humanoid in this incarnation to complete various tasks missions, etc. here on earth at this time and also to learn whatever it is we have chosen to learn in this life time.
In my/our own seeking and discovering over the many years we have been together we have done a great deal of clearing emotionally, processing, struggling, working through issues, and the like. I am saying this in response to some of you who have challenged whether this part of our being-ness has been/is being addressed and dealt with.
When I came to the board to offer information as Diamonda it was with a pure heart and a clear mind. I have been purposefully baited and some have attempted to challenge me. The things I have said in those moments that are channeled are not things I particularly want to be challenged on. Discussion is fine, but any attempt to try to 'expose' me or discredit me or just embarrass me is uncalled for. I am only offering my point of view like everyone else here is doing. There is nothing hidden to expose and I won't be drawn into this kind of nonsense merely for the purpose to massage or salve someone else's ego or curiosity.
I am also not interested in feeling obligated to anyone on the board to answer ANY question that I do not feel I want to answer regardless of the reason. It would be the same in any conversation. You can assume that if your question was not answered it was because I either have not had the time to do so or do not want to answer it. Trying to bully me into it will not get an answer out of me.
I do appreciate the respectful, curious, well thought out and caring questions that have been put forth and will answer them if and when I can. I prefer to actually ANSWER a question rather than give some pat, preconceived response that others or your inner selves can offer just to fill in the blanks. There are many questions that do not need to be asked of me. Think first please and see if the answer to your question can be given to you from within. This is the ultimate source. The inner voice within each of you holds your truth much more fully than anything I can tell you. I can merely corroborate what you already know.
So here is were I am at. I will ask Lunaria to remove the Diamonda board and place the posts on a thread in the channeling section for that is where it seems to best fit although it is not really channeling in the more traditional sense. I will check in there once in a while as I have time and inclination and be glad to answer any question I can as WhiteQueen which is the name I chose to be known as on this board. You may ask a question of any kind but that doesn't necessarily mean you will receive an answer to it. When I do respond you can assume the answer is coming from all parts of me. :-) and taking into consideration all aspects of myself and my knowingness/beingness. If Diamonda wishes to answer a question as herself, a separate entity, then she will identify herself. You may ask her direct questions but I may answer as our complete expression of 'self' rather than forcibly push her forward.
I will also be responding to various posts just as you all do in the threads in which they are written as I have always done here as WhiteQueen. If for some reason Diamonda lets me know that she would like to respond on her own I will just note it is from her. This way I won't feel as strained or as obligated to be 'her' for the members of the board.
For those of you who have asked wonderful questions, I have enjoyed answering them and hope to continue to do so. If you want to discuss those answers with me I am glad to do so if I can. If on the other hand you choose to try to undermine me or sucker punch me, please take it somewhere else.
So that's it for now. I'm back to my focus group work and will be seeing you around the board when I have some time to do so.
Blessings,
WQ
This is White Queen/Diamonda speaking. I'm writing to you to answer some questions and explain to you a decision I have come to.
I know there are a few questions to Diamonda that remain to be answered on the Diamonda thread. It's been quite difficult for me to get to the board recently and to answer those questions. I'd like to explain why. There are a few reasons.
First, I have been very busy in the 'world' lately doing my work and focusing on my business and my eBook focus group which begins today. It has taken a great deal of my time and energy. And I have recently chosen to put more of my attention on my work in 3D/4D where I have been called, which leaves me less time to come to the EC board to read and respond to messages.
Second, and probably more important, I have come to a realization that I would like to share with you.
Susan and Diamonda are a soul braid as you know. That being said, they/we function as one expression through a human vehicle this time around. When Lunaria asked me to 'channel' Diamonda for the board I agreed to do it as an experiment. At the time my intention was to allow her the individual expression that she sometimes desires and often expresses in a variety of my posts and teachings...only not under a separate moniker. This experiment was one which I had fantasized for a long time so this was a good opportunity for me. I had always wanted to be a 'channel' for a higher being. LOL.
Well now I realize I AM a higher being and that my years of keeping my field blocked to certain energies have made it nearly impossible for any being other than the one/s living in this body to come through. Instead of stepping aside and allowing some unknown entity who allegedly calls themselves what ever to come through me, I allow my own inner knowingness to come through in the form it does best. There is no need for me to channel a higher being as there are two of us higher beings already here and ready to impart our knowledge, wisdom, humor and whatever else comes out of us at any given time.
I have found it cumbersome and not entirely truthful allowing Diamonda her separate stage to answer your questions. You see, we function as ONE on this plane. Regardless of whose name is placed on the posts I am always conscious as Susan and never does Diamonda 'take over' as in a more typical channeling session with other entities or beings. It may be true that you sense a different tone or vibe when she speaks but that is because we choose allow that aspect to surface rather than when We/I am in my 'silly' or 'straight talking' aspect. But it is still all 'me', Susan the humanoid.
To allow Diamonda her own individual expression 'on call' is to forcibly separate the braid between us and to disallow myself my portion of the contribution to our joint expression and to unbalance us and our agreement to live and communicate as one being called Susan in humanoid form. It is also physcially debilitating.
And then there is another aspect that I feel is important to address. It is the seeming need for many of you to place a greater emphasis or importance on information that is 'channeled' by an allegedly higher being or entity or angel or disembodied soul who is supposed to know/be more and have a different point of view. Well, in my case this is a fallacy.
What exists in Susan are two well heeled, knowledgeable beings who are able to bring in tons of information and ideas, vibrations and solutions to your questions and problems from mult-dimensions. I/We span all 13 dimensions at any given time and are able to access information from all dimensions. That doesn't mean we will always be able or willing to respond to or answer questions on all the dimensions, but the access is there and I/WE often use it. There is no need for us to take on the facade which would 'convince' you that this 'bit of information is more real' or more valid because it is from the 'other side'.
Most of the time I/We live and exist in 3D/4D because that is the world around us that we need to address, live in, work in, relate in, function in. These dimensions require a unification of both mental and emotional selves in all their good and bad glory as well as the physical.
There IS NO OTHER SIDE. It's all one and it's only a perception that there is something else other than what is NOW and in the present. It's a matter of an individual's choice, intention, frequency and vibration where each of us is at any given moment in relation to which side or which dimension you or I are in.
In other words, my brain/being works just fine in this body and is no better or worse if it is called Diamonda, Susan, White Queen or anything else for that matter. You can call me anything you like, just don't call me late for dinner!
And there is another reason I have not come to the board of late and perhaps it is as great a reason as any other.
I have felt like I have been baited by several EC members. Whether as Diamonda or White Queen, I have felt like my personal integrity and credibility has been questioned, challenged and baited and I will not be drawn into either defending my point of view, or arguing about how I see life, live life or deal with my stuff.
Just because I may have a soul braid with a non-humamoid being doesn't mean that I am perfect or know everything. I/We are here on the 3D and that in and of itself is proof that there is still work to be done for both of us. But, also remember that there is a great challenge just by virtue of being a soul braid and I have agreed to live that challenge and do the best I/WE can.
And I must tell you that MY part of the braid, which is feline or Paschat is just as non-humanoid as is Diamonda's Insectillian. Both of us are genetically pure but as our expression on this plane warrants, we are here as 'humanoid' and thus experiencing our genetic lines as crossed or hybridized in some manner. As a result we express as both forms interchangeably.
We have both agreed to live as one and express as humanoid in this incarnation to complete various tasks missions, etc. here on earth at this time and also to learn whatever it is we have chosen to learn in this life time.
In my/our own seeking and discovering over the many years we have been together we have done a great deal of clearing emotionally, processing, struggling, working through issues, and the like. I am saying this in response to some of you who have challenged whether this part of our being-ness has been/is being addressed and dealt with.
When I came to the board to offer information as Diamonda it was with a pure heart and a clear mind. I have been purposefully baited and some have attempted to challenge me. The things I have said in those moments that are channeled are not things I particularly want to be challenged on. Discussion is fine, but any attempt to try to 'expose' me or discredit me or just embarrass me is uncalled for. I am only offering my point of view like everyone else here is doing. There is nothing hidden to expose and I won't be drawn into this kind of nonsense merely for the purpose to massage or salve someone else's ego or curiosity.
I am also not interested in feeling obligated to anyone on the board to answer ANY question that I do not feel I want to answer regardless of the reason. It would be the same in any conversation. You can assume that if your question was not answered it was because I either have not had the time to do so or do not want to answer it. Trying to bully me into it will not get an answer out of me.
I do appreciate the respectful, curious, well thought out and caring questions that have been put forth and will answer them if and when I can. I prefer to actually ANSWER a question rather than give some pat, preconceived response that others or your inner selves can offer just to fill in the blanks. There are many questions that do not need to be asked of me. Think first please and see if the answer to your question can be given to you from within. This is the ultimate source. The inner voice within each of you holds your truth much more fully than anything I can tell you. I can merely corroborate what you already know.
So here is were I am at. I will ask Lunaria to remove the Diamonda board and place the posts on a thread in the channeling section for that is where it seems to best fit although it is not really channeling in the more traditional sense. I will check in there once in a while as I have time and inclination and be glad to answer any question I can as WhiteQueen which is the name I chose to be known as on this board. You may ask a question of any kind but that doesn't necessarily mean you will receive an answer to it. When I do respond you can assume the answer is coming from all parts of me. :-) and taking into consideration all aspects of myself and my knowingness/beingness. If Diamonda wishes to answer a question as herself, a separate entity, then she will identify herself. You may ask her direct questions but I may answer as our complete expression of 'self' rather than forcibly push her forward.
I will also be responding to various posts just as you all do in the threads in which they are written as I have always done here as WhiteQueen. If for some reason Diamonda lets me know that she would like to respond on her own I will just note it is from her. This way I won't feel as strained or as obligated to be 'her' for the members of the board.
For those of you who have asked wonderful questions, I have enjoyed answering them and hope to continue to do so. If you want to discuss those answers with me I am glad to do so if I can. If on the other hand you choose to try to undermine me or sucker punch me, please take it somewhere else.
So that's it for now. I'm back to my focus group work and will be seeing you around the board when I have some time to do so.
Blessings,
WQ
Everybody wanted their say. I shut out most, then began to unravel the who's who. Eventually the merge was complete. Perhaps sometime you will notice no difference in your various selves and will just be your One Self.
;D