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Post by healing16 on Feb 15, 2005 19:32:09 GMT -5
i have been having muchos sexual issues lately--at first i thought it was just on the physical level--hormones affecting my sex drive, then becuase I was 'balancing' out from a recent merge of Oversoul--but I am thinking that with this most recent merge--brought in some 'emotional issues about sex...there is nothing in this life, that i know of, that should be causing me to have these 'negative' feelings about sex--so i am assuming its somehting to do with a new aspect that has merged with me--because i have super negative feelinga about sex and motherhood--and i dont know why--i use to be a very sexual person--intellectually i know sex is good and healthy ect...but even when i read about it now--it feels ugly to me--weird huh?--just trying to process this--Boris--who is an astrotherapist--took a look at my chart---(I dont know much about this all) but he said that it indicated in one of my past lives something about me having a sorrowful motherhood or something...I wonder?  love ya, shannon |
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Post by Monikah on Feb 15, 2005 21:18:20 GMT -5
Yeah, for me one of the most confusing part is that I was a human in total forgetfulness. Then soul aspects started adding their parts to me, and I changed to things I didn't like about myself or that I thought I had overcome or were confusing in some way. Still really weird sometimes. Feelings come through, thoughts, that are totally foreign to me. It's my stellar consciouness (oversoul) merging with my plantery consciousness (soul) ... one consciousness with many experiences balancing through 3D before lifting to higher Ds again. The human becoming god.dess walking.
Love,
Mon
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Post by healing16 on Feb 15, 2005 23:35:18 GMT -5
wow..thanks so much for sharing your experiences with me Monikah--its really helping me feel better about all of this--and to start to figure out what is going on with me--it's nice to know that I am not the only one thats so bonkers--not that I am happy that anyone goes thru any tough times--but you know what i mean--it's so true--sometimes thoughts/feelings/behaviours etc..will come out of nowhere--last a little while or a long while and go away--and then come back again--my poor boyfriend ha ha ha--I feel like very recently--another aspect of Oversoul has merged because as weird as it sounds--I can identify more as being a 'man' then a woman-- (and i am female this time around)--not only sexually becuase i tend to be more sexually attracted to females then males right now--but i even feel uncomfortable being in a womans body right now--i just dont 'feel' right being feminine--i use to really enjoy being a woman and felt sexual--but now it feels like I would be more at home if I had man's body--its so weird--and I am hoping this will merge and balance out soon--which makes me think--one time I was being shown many many faces of myself that I had over many lifetimes--my guides were showing me this--and the majority of them (well the ones they were showing me anywyas) were male--I thought that was odd--that so many of them were male--pretty cool--thanks again M.
love shannon
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Post by Monikah on Feb 16, 2005 9:13:26 GMT -5
Our family research has found, and this goes for me personally, that many Beings of the feminine principle were often masculine. Creation has been masculine-dominated for a long time, so some of what the feminine embodying as masculine entails is 1) to be a part of that dominance to learn from it so the feminine would no longer allow itself to be denied and 2) to bring "femininity" to the masculine so the masculine could balance and not be so dominant.
Many of the souls I have experienced were masculine. One of my main people, an oversoul himself, was masculine. He's merged fully with me now, no longer a separate entity. I have memory of the physical changes I went through to bring my form on earth to feminine (a castration in battle, for one). This one was the archetypal gay guy, with me as his oversoul, though he too experienced all that is. And many earth humans of my total soul were men.
Think yin and yang with each one's core being the opposite polarity.
You might be going through a similar merging.
Love,
Mon
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Post by healing16 on Feb 16, 2005 12:11:11 GMT -5
thats weird that you say that--I often say to my boyfriend (who I believe now is my twin flame) that it seems like he is a woman in a mans body and me a man in womans body--
love shannon
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Post by liza on Feb 20, 2005 13:51:41 GMT -5
Shannon, maybe you and your twin flame are more than ready for the next step? Doing something different sexually?
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Post by healing16 on Feb 20, 2005 19:46:27 GMT -5
Well..we've definately talked about it...we both have 'bisexual tendancies'--i guess you could call it--but i am still not at the point where I would want to bring in any other people into the relationship...it's almost like I think we have alot of growing and balancing out to do and perhaps we need some time out of a comitted relationship before we come back together--and i dont jusy mean growing and balacning out sexually--but in every aspect....
love shannon
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Post by liza on Feb 21, 2005 2:01:41 GMT -5
Bringing people sexually into your bed.. that requires an incredible amount of trust. Heh, I saw a swingers special on HBO or showtime once. Speaking the obvious, aint I?
There was this married couple with kids where the wife apparently changed her mind about their lifestyle because she was afraid of how they would affect their kids. But the husband didn't want to change his mind. That boundary was already crossed beyond the point of no return, I think. Boundaries and trust. Yikes.
Anyway, about the bi tendencies, that's pretty interesting! The term has been used before, and discussed about with another friend. Would just making out with the same sex do it, when you both are ready?
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