Walking Alone.

[ADMIN]

I need to process this: HELP!!!
Why is that when you think you have the most support is when you find yourself really walking the road alone.
I have seen all thru my life people enter my life with all the enthusiasm to only then turn their backs on you.
Why is that those who persue the light path are stoned, rediculed, accused, even get the feeling that people envy you because you have a little bit of knowledge, and all those things you would do to those you despise? The only thing a light workers intentions are is to give, support, enlighten, give love, and direction. Indeed life in a continuos path of trails and tests...and a very difficult one to stay on and keep centered, not allowing all the disolution and disappoinemts get to you.
I feel a pain in the heart, could be that maybe I expected gratefulness, but once again those that say are your friends are the quickest to become you enemy and accusers.
Nothing has happened to me lately, but reviewing my life path I have seen this pattern of abandonment for extending a hand to help one find their way....
The saddest thing about it is that you love these ssouls and they are the ones that cause the greatest pain.

[Monikah]

The road to enlightenment is a road traveled alone. Sovereignty means you stand in your own truth no matter how big the stones are that people are throwing. People hide jealousies behind dismissal of truth or come in with enthusiasm only to turn away when they realize there's no quick fix, only effort. And these days people are leaving, people who don't belong in our soul groups are moving to their evolutionary choices too. These are not easy things to bear. We have been encouraged to find groups for support during this upcoming years just because of these types of things.

You're not alone in this, MirRa.

Hugs,
Monikah

[healing16]

Wow..that is so weird that you posted this thread Mira..because I was just thinking about this exact sort of thing...I remember when I was a child on into adolecesnce..I was very open and creative and 'my lite' so to speak was pretty bright..and all i really did care about was helping others...but was met with much resistance and had many stones thrown may way...when I started getting sick when I was a teen..I sort of shut down and became numb..and I started self-medicating and also taking meds from my doc to deal with my illnesses...my creativity was lost, my ambition was lost, my lite was very dim...and funnily enough people started accepting me more..and that actually felt nice..so in a weird way..I now realize that I was actually perpetuationg my own illness and depression ect..becasue I was afraid of my own bright lite..I wanted to fit in, I wanted people to like me, I wanted to be normal, I was afraid and eventhought it was wrong to be powerful....and now as I get better, bit by bit. and get back some of my ambition and power and creativity, it's starting all over again..the non-acceptance, the jealousie, the stones thrown my way..it hurts...but I will do my best to stand tall...I think you are lovely Mira and such a present to this world and to those who are lucky enough to have you in their lives..thank you for starting this thread--it has helped me process some things aswell

all my love,
Myrr

[Monikah]

I think a lot of ascenders have found this pattern of numbing or dumbing down to fit in. If you fit other people's definition of what's real you're accepted and if you don't you're rejected, and rejection hurts so you do what you have to to avoid it. People are so programmed to be sheeple and 'droids and filled with fear about anything different that sometimes it's a wonder that any of us are healing!

Great insight, Myrrhiel, seeing that you perpetuated your own illness so you could fit in.

Love,
Mon

[ADMIN]

MYrrheil,
Darn it, it feels like we are just getting a glimpse of what Christ went thru.
I remember once being accused of leading a girl down the wrong path, accused by my own husband who said that my beliefs were gibberish and nonsense.
Luckly my friend stood up to him and said that the only thing I taught here was the way to live a life free of shadows.
Another instance I was accused of whoaring a girl, then again all I did was speak of the spiritual path. I mean accused to the point that I had to stand up to her father and make it clear that before he tried to clean my closet he should clean his first!
Then I dedicated three years to giving personal guide to a lady friend, every morning I would meet here at 8:00Am to teach her, read, and show her the tones and meditation. She also turned her back on me and became my enemy...it hurts very much...I guess it's one wanting to hold on these souls, need to let go of this as this is baggage I am carrying.
I also notice that when you have a commitment with someone and they don't agree with you, they then become hostil and out you down by spitting out all the negative thoughts they had inside. i think I have to be grateful that at least they were sincere now then later, as the saying goes. But one never truly gets to know another person and one (I) needs to learn and accept this sort of behaviour even from those that are showing the most sincere emotions of love until they remove the mask and show their true face.

[healing16]

Thanks Mon..
didnt Marianne Williamsone (Course in Miracles) say something like:

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. OUr deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not out darkness that most frightens us"

I like that one.

Love Myrr

[Sowelu]

In my own experience, MirRA, if you share from your heart in this world, to others not in their heart, you will first get a clammoring to grok what you share. Then you get the projected anger from them when they can't "live up to it", because all along they were groking you from their head.

This world is dominated by the mind. The mind does not know the heart. It's the whole reason we're here. The mind keeps attempting to "fake" an appearance of being the heart. When it begins to fail, the emotions kick in so that the person who was living this false way feels inadequate, inept, frightened that they aren't worthy, angry that they aren't privy to what others who share these deep truths must be, afraid they've been lied to, and on and on.

Once a person enters their heart space, they will not feel all those emotions nor will they project them onto those who live from their heart. Until then, however, the emotions will get stirred, and the mind will seek a target, and it won't see itself at fault.

Again, just my observation. In myself, I might add, as much as in anyone else "out there". The battle is long and tedious, and the resolution into harmony is obscured for most.

The kicker is, though, that the mirror works for us in all of this, too. So that when we encounter others projecting their issues on us as if we're the problem, we have something within to work on ourselves. If we were truly true, really being in our heart, we wouldn't feel or need to face the rejection and projected emotions of others as some sort of persecution of ourselves.

So... we're all learning the same stuff. Some of us get enough glimpses of the heart to stay aware that what we know we really DO know. But we also dip back into the lower self (emotional body/mind complex) WITH that knowing, making it false simply by attempting to be it from "the wrong place" in us.

Or so it seems to me.

Love you! (((Hugs)))
Sowelu

[healing16]

Well said S.

what you call heart,I call my I AM space...I am constantly trying to get out of my ego to my I AM space..and when I am there..nothing bothers me...and I agree about the mirrors..that is so helpful...when someone is really bothering me, I always try to see what aspect of myslef my soul wants to experience and work on....it's so tough sometimes though..takes a lot of practice....like with my boyfriends mother...ahhhhh...

he he..love to you,
Myrr :

[ADMIN]

Sowelu,
Funny you should mention the "Heart" As I was writing the second half of my emotional entrapment I kept hearing "Heart" The Heart the seat of trufulness & light.
Thanks, I can understands that once I have processed all this never again will it impact my emotional body. Guess this is why sometimes no matter how much emotions in us, once we learn to balance them, then we seem like we are cold hearted instead of compassionate beings.

[ADMIN]

Myrr,
Thanks for reminding.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. OUr deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not out darkness that most frightens us"

[Sowelu]

((((Hugs!))))[/b]

[seaoffeeling]

[glow=red,2,300]Too many people are unable to recognize truth, because they haven't yet accepted it within themselves. Yet, these people will gravitate towards others who are at home in their Truth, because on an unconscious level they are attracted to what they want but are too afraid to reach for themselves. At the same time, seeing others stand in their Truth can cause some people to feel rage and frustration because they don't understand or have access to that same Truth in themselves. Some people may even feel jealousy because they unconsciously know you have something they don't have, that they don't 'get'. I think the anger that is directed at you, MirRA, is really those people's projection of own unconscious anger against themselves. And similarly, their rejection of you is their rejection of their own Truth, what they do not understand and are afraid to approach inside themselves.

[/glow]

[liza]

*HUGS* Mir-RA, I hear you... and everyone else, too.

Maybe these stone throwers are reflecting something you do to yourself, or how you look at yourself?

I learned a bit about Buddhism-- to be attached to something creates suffering. These stone throwers are obviously attached to a certain image of you (like they did with Jesus), and they suffer greatly for it... you have a well rounded perspective of life, ya know!

Just a point of view to consider about, and I thought this was interesting to bring up. Feel free to take it with a grain of salt.