Post by innerpeace1967 on Nov 26, 2005 12:10:34 GMT -5
On the whole my life has been pretty sad to say the least, up until recently I always thought it was me doing something wrong.
This year has been no exception, in the early part of the year I sat with my brother while he dies of a brain tumour, which tore me apart to see him die in such pain and his dignity be stripped away from him like it was. But he took it with such grace and composure, I know if it had been me at THAT time i would have been wailing ''Why me''.
After he died I really lost myself into the 'Abyss'.
After alot of nagging from other people I finally went to councelling. My councellor after initial assessment she suggested that we do inner child therapy, so I agreed, I was so low at this point I would of done anything if somebody convinced me it help.
She used a kind of hypnotherapy where I revisited all stages of my childhood and where it was necessary rescue my inner child from places and love her. By doing this I was repairing not only her, but myself and 'reprogramming' the thoughts and emotions around that situation.
The 'grief' that came out through this process was unbelievable, and although very upsetting at the time, the release I felt afterwards was amazing.
Getting back in touch with that child and what she had gone through planted the 'seed' to grow into what I am sat here writing this today.
After that I looked at my whole life and realised how much I had neglected the 'inner me' , the very essence of who I AM. I had always looked at things from other peoples point of view, not what it was doing to me and the 'inner me', When my dad abused me I didn't tell anyone because it would destroy the family. The same with my abusive husband, all I worried about was 'What it would do to other people' if I did tell.
What I didn't address my whole life up to May of this year is how other peoples actions affected me and who Iam.
The other thing this therapy taught me is you have to forgive these people as it is part of the healing process.
Below are a couple of sites for anyone who wants to find out more.
www.aest.org.uk/innerchild/
www.crystalinks.com/innerchild.html
joy2meu.com/index.html
This therapy was a real eye opener for me to my spiritual path, so just felt needed to share it.
With love and peace
Ali
x
This year has been no exception, in the early part of the year I sat with my brother while he dies of a brain tumour, which tore me apart to see him die in such pain and his dignity be stripped away from him like it was. But he took it with such grace and composure, I know if it had been me at THAT time i would have been wailing ''Why me''.
After he died I really lost myself into the 'Abyss'.
After alot of nagging from other people I finally went to councelling. My councellor after initial assessment she suggested that we do inner child therapy, so I agreed, I was so low at this point I would of done anything if somebody convinced me it help.
She used a kind of hypnotherapy where I revisited all stages of my childhood and where it was necessary rescue my inner child from places and love her. By doing this I was repairing not only her, but myself and 'reprogramming' the thoughts and emotions around that situation.
The 'grief' that came out through this process was unbelievable, and although very upsetting at the time, the release I felt afterwards was amazing.
Getting back in touch with that child and what she had gone through planted the 'seed' to grow into what I am sat here writing this today.
After that I looked at my whole life and realised how much I had neglected the 'inner me' , the very essence of who I AM. I had always looked at things from other peoples point of view, not what it was doing to me and the 'inner me', When my dad abused me I didn't tell anyone because it would destroy the family. The same with my abusive husband, all I worried about was 'What it would do to other people' if I did tell.
What I didn't address my whole life up to May of this year is how other peoples actions affected me and who Iam.
The other thing this therapy taught me is you have to forgive these people as it is part of the healing process.
Below are a couple of sites for anyone who wants to find out more.
www.aest.org.uk/innerchild/
www.crystalinks.com/innerchild.html
joy2meu.com/index.html
This therapy was a real eye opener for me to my spiritual path, so just felt needed to share it.
With love and peace
Ali
x
