Ascension Symptoms and what not?

[Edward]

Well, lately I have been extremely exhusted. Like for instance today I slept nearly 12 hours and the days before that I was very tired and sleeping long hours. Ive been so tired I've stopped my work outs on my gazzlle rider. But this has only been 2 successive days in a row that I have stopped. Also I have noticed that I have these extemely painful pimples on my neck and on the back of my head. They are very pointed and pressurized. It hurts to touch them. They seem to be going down now a little but I am not sure since I've been on my organic diet is that if I am allergic to any foods or if this is a form of detox.


These are some of the concerns that I have and what I have been experiencing in the past week.


Peace, Love and Enlightenment,


Ed

[Monikah]

There's a major shift going on, Ed. With your recent openings I'm sure you're processing like crazy. I feel the zits are part of detox ... even if what's being processed seems etheric or spiritual or multi-D, it comes through 3D and affects you no matter how pure the diet.

Love,
Monikah

[Edward]

Ok Mon,

I was starting to think that perhaps the diet and organic stuff I was on that I was finding out I was allergic to some foods. But I also thought that it is possible it is part of a detox process. Thanks Mon.


Peace, Love and Enlightenment,


Ed

[ADMIN]

Speaking about exhausted, my back gave in and I was out from work on Tuesday. I could hardly walk. Today I feel better.
Seems my Kundalini is making up. I have had the same problem within the last four years.

[Nicole]

I got this extremely depressed feeling at lunch on Tuesday, then I got nauseated. My friend at work who is doing the same type of "work" that I'm into (i.e., this) got the same. I went home at 5 and went straight to bed. Didn't get up until 5 pm yesterday. It hit me very hard. It's a shift coming up in the next two weeks.

[Edward]

Letting go. How does one release some old stuf as in old habbits, old vices, old emotional stuff. I've been lementing about letting go of poker here, but I do not want to go back to working full time. I've been out of a "normal" job as what alot of people would say. I know this is an issue for me to decide upon myself. But I am conflicted here. It really has me in a bind. I mean, I am using poker to bring what ever income I can in at this moment and it has been working. But the job is stressful and it taxes you in so many ways. It makes me think of why should I be doing this. I mean I absolutely love it but I guess I have in the back of my mind that I am holding onto money here, which would be poker and that I need to move on to clear this money/greed issue I have. You see I am not necessarily over greedy. I just want enough to provide for myself. This is where the conflict arises and I want to let it go but at the same time I want to keep the freedom of doing what I want to do , when I want to do it. I have it in my head that if I do not let go of poker I will some how be stuck in 3D and I won't ascend because I was not able to let poker go. I know the decsion is entirely up to me. Can you guys, give any round about i nsight with out directly telling me what to do. I just need to hear some views on the subject matter. Thanks


Peace, Love and Enlightenment,


Ed

[Nicole]

Ed,

Why do you feel then that poker is bad? I think you need to examine that before you move forward with anything else.

It's ok to enjoy something. It's ok to want - to DESERVE - as much abundance as you want. Are you hurting others in the process? Are you hurting yourself? If not then why lament at all? Do you feel you're undeserving? Have others told you you're "bad" or not good enough if you play?

Just some things to think about! From what you've said I think you have other issues to clear and poker is just a front for them. Sounds like it brings you joy and makes you money, and I wouldn't let it go if it were me!

[Monikah]

Poker is providing you with your level of abundance. Money is needed in this society. Working "normal" jobs is a pain too unless you find something fulfilling. Sometimes the choice of flexibility or sovereignty to make a few bucks and pay the bills while growing spiritually overrides the benefits of getting a "normal" job that taxes one's decision to grow spiritually.

<<I have it in my head that if I do not let go of poker I will some how be stuck in 3D and I won't ascend because I was not able to let poker go. >>

Trust me ... lots of bets going on upstairs all the time. You won't not ascend just because you enjoy the game.

2 cents.

Love,
Mon

[ADMIN]

I agree with the girls. People have implemented that gaming is bad, it's bad when you lose your responsibilties with that which you have an obligation to as your bills, food, and personal stuff.
I play the slots machine once a month, I do it for enjoyment and many, many, times has abundance manifested thru this via.
The only thing that I do before entering a gaming place is to protect myself as not everyone there have the same intention. There are different intentions, those that are greedy to win, those that play to solve their situations, and other that go to enjoy a moment of excitement. If the money show up, well double the fun, if it doesn't then I always say "I owed it to them and I have contributed to the Indians for what what done to them in the past" I play at Indian reservations, and as you may know all the money they take in is tax free.
So, if you are enjoying it, fine,,,,now if you are needing to do it, a must do thing, then this may eventually lead to a more dangerous outcome. A man must know his limitations, and those who can stand in front of a temptation and know when to walk away, is a Master.
Have fun!, and know that you are being provided with the cash that you need, and save for when the time comes.
I remodeled my house completely from my gaming account which mounted to 35K. That was my hobby.
Now I only game once a month becaue I don't have the time and I have a greater expenses. ;D

[Edward]

Thank you so much Nicole and Mon.


I really do love poker, but sometimes its just frustrating. I love to do it and it has helped me out emensely with my freedom to continue my spiritual awakening and start bringing in some income. I am still not were I finiancially want to be. I am barely getting by, but I have made progress thoguh both poker wise and spiritually. I was thinking that since I was having many set backs in my poker gains and bringing in money that it was a possible sign for me to move on. That I was caught up in the money aspect and greed and that I couldn't let go of it and I thought that perhaps that was my lesson. To finally let go of it. I am/was really contemplating it heavily and trying to justify both causes. Thanks both of you again for your thoughts and comments.




Peace, Love and Enlightenment,

Ed

[ADMIN]

Oh, I forgot to mention. St germin warns about gaming and why people lose everything they have.
It's the have fun part, not trying to resolve your monetary problems thru gaming.
Especially if you have the power to decree to make things go your way.
Each one has what we are entitled to.
Guess that's why some are called lucky while others have no luck?

[Edward]

Thank you MirRA and very nice job on your hobby. I am most happy for you.



I want to thank you ladies again. You have helped me put things in perspective where i was feeling clouded and at the end of my witts.

Thanks MirRA, Nicole and Mon.


Peace, Love and Enlightenment,


Ed

[ADMIN]

Ed,
For some reason this thread came up in my mind today.
I connected the 7 laws of the universe with this post, somehow thou some are aware and others ignorant that there are laws on earth and so as a above in the universe.
I know a lady who I may attest that she is an angel in disguise.
This lady has won the lottery two times, buys those bingo tickets in the seven eleven stores and wins 10K and it seam like she is just a endless well of abundance.
knowing her for many years she has always stated that she is a via so that GOD thru her may help those within her circle. She is a very giving person and is considered to be blessed because the way that she attracts the money. They even say that they have never seen a person as lucky as she. Her sister won 100k as well, seems it runs in the family! LOL!
She came into mind today with the law of "Attraction" which we attract what we give!
I learned alot from her as she said that no one knows how and when you will receive, one just has to be accepting and willing to give to others what maybe that other lacks the ability or faith and that God does act in strange ways.
Thru this lady and learned that "I AM ABUNDANCE' and as the story goes. God I have prayed to you many of times to send me the money to resolve my problems and you never answered my prayers or gave me a sign or anything. Then GOD said, son how could I give you the money if you never played the Lottery"! LOL!
If this is true or not, don't know but, all I know that when I have won big time money I have given to those in need and and I have seen a pattern where the money increased.
When I was in the pits, I had 40 bucks, told my brother to take me to a place where they owed me money... of course my brother had no idea where he was taking me.
I played 20 bucks and nothing at the slot machine. The last 20 bucks to my name went into the machine and I won 500 buck. I gave my brother a $100 tip for taking to to collect the money I ws owed.
I do not encourage gaming to anyone as very few have the ability of control and I have seen people destroy their homes, family, business, dreams because they didn't know when to stop, they created a monster from their weakness, do get up and go home, it's to enjoy, laugh, have a good time as if you went to a amusement park. As we know all is good, it's us that make it bad and give the power for it to control us.
the same goes for those who drink, who are shopper maniac, cosmectic surgery, etc... that which we give power to will control us and take over our power. So, all is fair, it's like walking among the thiefs and not becoming a thief.
Whew!

[ADMIN]

The Laws of the Universe





Ayal Hurst explains how our reality is a mirror that we create of our self:


THE LAWS OF THE UNIVERSE
(1) YOU CREATE 100% OF YOUR REALITY


(2) IT'S NEVER ABOUT ANOTHER PERSON, PLACE, OR THING


(3) EVERY PERSON, PLACE, OR THING IS A MIRROR AND HAS THE POTENTIAL TO BE A GIFT FOR YOU


(4) YOU EITHER ARE GIVING LOVE, OR ASKING FOR LOVE


When I attach a value and a meaning to some event, I am creating a perception. In other words, it is my choice how to interpret what happened. I will usually interpret an event by seeing it through whatever issues or beliefs I already have going on inside of me. In other words, how I choose to see something, the perception I have of an event, is not necessarily what is happening, but how I choose to view it. If I have anger, I will likely interpret what someone says as sounding angry. If I clear myself of internal issues, I can choose to and will be able to interpret things from a higher vibrational state. Creating a perception creates how I see reality. I am responsible therefore, for how I create my reality.


Here is an example: as a small child, I see my father being angry. My perception of that event is that I am the reason he is angry - if I were a better child he wouldn't be angry. This perception then becomes a part of my life. I have a perception that I am a bad person, and therefore I always perceive that people are angry at me. Or, I relate to others in fear.


As soon as I give up 100% responsibility for creating my own reality, as soon as I give up the responsible role, as soon as I think someone is doing something to me, I have become a victim. Other's responses to me are, in reality, only a reflection of my own energy, a reflection of whatever energy I am putting out, or have inside of me.


In other words, if you have a perception that someone is a hurtful person, you must have a belief that you will be hurt. They then just play the role for you that you are expecting. You create what you believe in.


When I come from the lower vibrational state, I will be viewing things as judgments. I will make judgments about myself or about another. The higher vibration is to see whatever happens as a mirror of myself in the Now: "I see you doing that. I want to judge you for it. Instead, I will see that it is a reflection of the energy I either hold in myself, or have held in myself. So, I realize that I do that, or have done that."


I ask myself, "Am I still doing that? Where do I still hold that judgment (which I want to put out on you) about myself - where do I still think that I am not ok?" I identify the judgment I'm making against myself. I ask: "What part of me do I still not love, and therefore I judge it?" Then I look at the other person and think: "I don't need to judge them. They are simply being a mirror of my own issue." I ask: "What in me created that in my reality?" In reality, all of us are really asking for love, which is what we all truly want.


Saying: "What is the mirror to me?" instantly removes the judgment. Then there is no charge. There is only acceptance. Acceptance is the higher vibration. It is above forgiveness, because forgiveness implies that something has been done wrong. Acceptance says all is happening perfectly, as it should. All is perfect. Whatever is happening enables us to grow, if we look at it from being the Creator, not the victim. If we look at it all as perfect, we immediately move into the energy of Love, Trust, and Peace. Then there is no judgment. If it's complicated, it's not Truth.


Know that if you feel anger or any other unpleasant or uncomfortable emotion, you must carry that energy within you. It isn't because of what someone else did. The situation just released what was already there in you. Then you have the opportunity to see what the mirror is for you, to see what you carry within yourself so that you can heal, grow, and change - therefore, seeing your reflection in another or in a situation is a positive and useful thing.


Thought triggers emotion. See what kind of thoughts you are thinking, and what emotion that creates. Use your 5 senses to ask if something doesn't feel right or comfortable in the way you are responding, thinking, or feeling. Healing comes from the #3 law - taking responsibility.




Lower vibration:
expectation
judgment
rejection/blame
sorrow/apologizing Higher vibration:
responding from compassion
observing
acceptance
seeing the mirror




Fear is only a mask of your true desire. You need to find out what your true desire is, and state that desire 100% positively: "I choose to have or create...."
There are 3 universal fears:




(1) abandonment
(2) not feeling worthy or good enough
(3) loss of trust which = fear of surrender
Any time there is a fear, it will fall into one or more of these categories. Check out what your fear is about.


You will continue to create the same kind of situations, you will keep yourself in judgment, you will reinforce the lower vibrational state of thinking it's someone else's fault, and you will keep yourself in the perception of being victimized, until you get out of the program and have a new perception.


To find out and work with your fear, or masked desire, first state what you fear - say or write the negative expression of it: all that you think is going on, what bothers you, who you think did what to you, another's flaws, etc. Make a list - in one column write down all your fears and/or the negative attributes of a situation or of someone. In the other column, turn that around and become aware that all that you see is actually inside of you - your own perception of yourself - your own issues. Write it that way in the second column. For example, in one column you may have written: "Amy has no sense of self esteem. I hate that in her." Then, in the other column, you turn that into: "I feel that I have no sense of self-esteem. I hate that in myself," or "I have a belief that I am not powerful, _____ etc. etc."


That way you see what your erroneous core beliefs are that keep you in fear, that create the difficulty you are in, that make you see your own issues in others and judge them for it, and that keep you from manifesting what you want.


The number one addiction to an erroneous core belief, what keeps you in it, comes from feeling guilt and shame. That's what makes us not want to see these issues as our self. In reality, there is no shame or guilt. There is only growth and Love. If you treat yourself lovingly, you will be able to see that when you face an issue in yourself, you have the chance to become even clearer, ever more loving. And that is the perfection of the journey, of what we experience, of seeing ourselves in the mirror.


Next, say or write your preferred truth, expressing what you choose to create, as 100% positive. Use all positive words. Then put your highest truth in the form of an "I Am" statement. For example: "I AM powerful" or "I AM a loving, wonderful human being," or "I AM able to love myself." Continue to say your positive I Am statement throughout the day and for as long as you need to, until the negative program is neutralized.


Here is the cycle of an erroneous core belief loop:




You judge something or someone, including yourself.


You feel guilty about doing that.


Then you become fearful that you will be punished.


You feel shame, and you hide it all away so you're not aware the issue is really even there, that it's yours.

[ADMIN]

In order to get away from the shame, or deal with it in some way, you blame others. This is called projection. You put it out on someone or something else.
So, here is how you re-program an old belief:




Own the fear or pattern. See how you react to a given situation - look at what you are afraid of. Ask: "What keeps me believing in that fear? What will happen if I let go of it? What is the pay off for keeping it? What do I get to do or not do if I keep the fear?"


Decide if this pattern serves you anymore. Decide if you want to keep the program, or change it. If you decide to keep it, observe why, without judgment.


If you decide to change it, decide what you want to change it to, exactly. Be specific. You must have a new belief, a choice for a new perception. If you choose to believe in a new reality, you eliminate fear.


Put out your intention - what you intend to create. Say: "I intend to_____." You can even state how you will do it, step by step. Your intention must be followed by willingness.


Ask Spirit, your Highest Self, for guidance or help to achieve the new intention. State your new reality in the form of "I Am_____."


This creates Joy, Growth, Freedom!!
What could be better than that?
Worth doing the work to get it?
Fears have supported us, and we tend to want to hold onto them through our anger or other emotional reactions because it's the only way of life we've known. Fears can be survival tools, but will keep you locked in a lower vibration that doesn't help your life.


These are energy sucking ways of behaving, out of fear:




Being aloof.
Being an interrogator ("Who did this?! Why did you....?! Didn't you realize that...?!" etc.).
Being an intimidator (energy makes others feel afraid of you - backing people down).
Being someone who creates confusion for others (gets them off center).
Being a "poor me."
If you find yourself worried or fearful about what other people think, the mirror of that really is: you are in judgment of yourself.


If you are in doubt, you are caught between realities and aren't sure what to believe.


If you are in fear, you are actually holding a belief that you are inadequate to deal with something.


A fear of judgment is actually a desire for unconditional love.


If you are in pain, you are in resistance to something. What are you resisting? Identify what you are getting by holding onto the pain.


Change the perception that there was any damage done in a given situation. If you are the creator, then you created that situation for some reason. What was the reason?


If you are in pain, you are judging. Move instead to acceptance. It is all perfect. Ask: What is the gift of the mirror for me here?


If you are asking why, you are into blaming. Go to your heart, instead. There is no war happening, unless you create one by your perception.


If you are in resistance to something, you are trying to be in control, and you are fearing a loss of power. It is a false belief that you will lose control or power, because:




If you identify with God, if you know that you ARE God, that is POWER. And that is all there is. It's already working out perfectly. And everything else is God, too.
Everything is already perfect, and there is no need for you to try to control anything. It is impossible to do so, anyway.


What you CAN create is responding from Peace and living from higher vibrational states. That then creates a reality that will mirror that higher vibrational state.


The true use of the ego is to deal with being on this planet where there is duality. That is why we see this reality with 2 eyes. But, we must understand the higher truth - that all is One, One Energy Source - and that perception comes with seeing from a single eye, the spiritual eye. The ego's true use is to choose for you what you want to experience and to learn in this lifetime, so it sets that up, by giving you a specific ego with specific challenges. The ego controls emotions. We need it for our wide range of emotions, which we learn from - in this way we learn to work with energy and use it appropriately. Self sabotage is the ego in its lower vibration.


Listen to the Higher Self. The ego was designed to deal with polarity - neither side of which is the real truth. The Higher Truth is larger than, bigger than, either side of polarity.


Honor where someone is in their development, what lessons they have set up to learn for themselves.


Using these laws will help you to allow others to express themselves, while you remain at peace.




Accept what is as Perfection.