Post by Edward on Jun 22, 2005 22:55:56 GMT -5
Here is some notes on my dream that I had last night of the Full moon. Pretty powerful stuff.
Peace, Love and Enlightenment,
Ed
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I was sitting down perhaps close to sundown. I was perhaps in a cafe of sorts. I was definitely at a round black wired table. siting in a chair. I had a drink in front of me.
These two gentlemen(wizard looking folk) coming into my area
They were talking and I joined in conversation some how. One thing lead to another and some how we got into principles of things and in spirituality I think...
Then they were very impressed with me and I made friends with the one I called Gandalf
Then the next thing I knew it, I was in pyramid/ stepped like room. It seeemed to have a wide base but inclined to a peak like a triangle. This was inside a building
This is where the lessons took place
I remeber being outside of this place. Seeing the school.
yes there were quite a few others there with me also being outside seeing this school I saw a building right next to it. It was the library
I was offered if I wanted to go into the library first and then I recounted another "library" dream I had in that dream. I think this library was some sort of crystal library but I didn't go in it. I went straight to the school first.
I was dreaming and I was in this dream right. Felt like I was in a priest school or some sort of wizard schooling. Both top memebers had white beards and I called one guy gahandalf and the other guy was just known as head wizard I believe. Well I was in the dream and we were going through initiations. I passed four of the 5 levels but lost concentration at the final level because I got all excited. I was dissapointed I didn't pass the final level.
After the trials/lessons where over.
I did something that went against school rules
I think I was practicing on my own or using a book(bad book) to take short cuts well this was highly against the rules and showed lack of discipline is what I felt. They were condemnming or admonishing me that is
With the lesson. I was doing...something that involved heavy concentration with the mind....and I got past four levels of concentrations levels and on the 5th level I was like in my mind I am almost there and the power is almost mine. I got really excited that I would be open to these new powers and then I failed it because I lost my concentration as I thought about those things in anticipation of me completing the final level
Then when I was at the temple or place of study after the lesson was over, I was using I think the "head" wizards book to practice. I think this was a no-no and a big mistake. I had the wizard I called gahandalf the one who brought me to the school and the "head" wizard confront me. Then the Head wizard said, to gahandalf, I knew this was a mistake bringing him here. . I was pleading with them and literally crying .
In the dream and I was recanting a dream I had. Yes another dream. I was telling them of the several dreams I have had.
Telling them that I have to be here. I have had many dreams of being with wizards and being one. I was pleading with them and balling my eye's out. Then the dream ended and switched to another one.
I just don't understand that though. I had dream last night where in my dream I was quoting another dream I had month's ago. Inside my dream that is
It was pretty real, almost like perhaps a past life, but I figure if it was past life how the heck and I am bringing in this life's dreams. I am thinking perhaps I was fully concious in another life and was already drawing on this life times experiences since past future and present all happen at the same time?
I still feel the shock of that dream of being admonished and being kicked out..I dont know if I was though. But what I sensed is that I craved to get to the highest level I can as fast as I can.
Basically greed and I think that contributed to my in appropiate behavior. What I don't understand is that I thought my obsessive behavior was quelled or atleast resloved. I don't know if this was ..something of past life or if this was happening on the astral plane and part of this life time.
I was doing a lesson and using part of my mind/visualization more of a concentration thing and to to many tasks at the same time. I was passing each level with flying colors and as i got too excited on the 5th level and letting part of my mind dwell on what new powers/abilities I would have after this completion I lost all my concentration and I failed that last level of the lesson.
Then I went and I was using a book, perhaps the "head wizard" book to study I think. But more or less I think it was a book I shouldn't be looking at and that I was not ready to have. I basically went behind the head wizard back and was in the temple looking at it. Then I was confronted by the head wizard and
gahandalf and then started their admonishment of me and saying we never should have ....brought me here. Then I started crying and was so upset that I would be kicked out and started recanting my other dreams to them.
I do not know what happened but felt I betrayed myself for being too greedy.
So I do not know what was their final decision was.
I still feel as if I was there and I can feel the emotional effect on me.
There were dissapointed in me and felt they made a huge mistake in bringing me there and I felt that they wanted to kick me out.
Perhaps I need to slow down and be patient and not let the power issue or level issue control my motives was the lesson to be learned from this dream?
I wanted so badly to be advanced and to be able to have this power and knowledge. I wanted to be somebody.
I have had several other dreams last night too. But I didn't want to keep focus on this one. I felt that perhaps too much attention on things keeps me blinded.
I have this feel of total disapointment in me. It's like I've been hurt and that I could not control myself.
Peace, Love and Enlightenment,
Ed
===========
I was sitting down perhaps close to sundown. I was perhaps in a cafe of sorts. I was definitely at a round black wired table. siting in a chair. I had a drink in front of me.
These two gentlemen(wizard looking folk) coming into my area
They were talking and I joined in conversation some how. One thing lead to another and some how we got into principles of things and in spirituality I think...
Then they were very impressed with me and I made friends with the one I called Gandalf
Then the next thing I knew it, I was in pyramid/ stepped like room. It seeemed to have a wide base but inclined to a peak like a triangle. This was inside a building
This is where the lessons took place
I remeber being outside of this place. Seeing the school.
yes there were quite a few others there with me also being outside seeing this school I saw a building right next to it. It was the library
I was offered if I wanted to go into the library first and then I recounted another "library" dream I had in that dream. I think this library was some sort of crystal library but I didn't go in it. I went straight to the school first.
I was dreaming and I was in this dream right. Felt like I was in a priest school or some sort of wizard schooling. Both top memebers had white beards and I called one guy gahandalf and the other guy was just known as head wizard I believe. Well I was in the dream and we were going through initiations. I passed four of the 5 levels but lost concentration at the final level because I got all excited. I was dissapointed I didn't pass the final level.
After the trials/lessons where over.
I did something that went against school rules
I think I was practicing on my own or using a book(bad book) to take short cuts well this was highly against the rules and showed lack of discipline is what I felt. They were condemnming or admonishing me that is
With the lesson. I was doing...something that involved heavy concentration with the mind....and I got past four levels of concentrations levels and on the 5th level I was like in my mind I am almost there and the power is almost mine. I got really excited that I would be open to these new powers and then I failed it because I lost my concentration as I thought about those things in anticipation of me completing the final level
Then when I was at the temple or place of study after the lesson was over, I was using I think the "head" wizards book to practice. I think this was a no-no and a big mistake. I had the wizard I called gahandalf the one who brought me to the school and the "head" wizard confront me. Then the Head wizard said, to gahandalf, I knew this was a mistake bringing him here. . I was pleading with them and literally crying .
In the dream and I was recanting a dream I had. Yes another dream. I was telling them of the several dreams I have had.
Telling them that I have to be here. I have had many dreams of being with wizards and being one. I was pleading with them and balling my eye's out. Then the dream ended and switched to another one.
I just don't understand that though. I had dream last night where in my dream I was quoting another dream I had month's ago. Inside my dream that is
It was pretty real, almost like perhaps a past life, but I figure if it was past life how the heck and I am bringing in this life's dreams. I am thinking perhaps I was fully concious in another life and was already drawing on this life times experiences since past future and present all happen at the same time?
I still feel the shock of that dream of being admonished and being kicked out..I dont know if I was though. But what I sensed is that I craved to get to the highest level I can as fast as I can.
Basically greed and I think that contributed to my in appropiate behavior. What I don't understand is that I thought my obsessive behavior was quelled or atleast resloved. I don't know if this was ..something of past life or if this was happening on the astral plane and part of this life time.
I was doing a lesson and using part of my mind/visualization more of a concentration thing and to to many tasks at the same time. I was passing each level with flying colors and as i got too excited on the 5th level and letting part of my mind dwell on what new powers/abilities I would have after this completion I lost all my concentration and I failed that last level of the lesson.
Then I went and I was using a book, perhaps the "head wizard" book to study I think. But more or less I think it was a book I shouldn't be looking at and that I was not ready to have. I basically went behind the head wizard back and was in the temple looking at it. Then I was confronted by the head wizard and
gahandalf and then started their admonishment of me and saying we never should have ....brought me here. Then I started crying and was so upset that I would be kicked out and started recanting my other dreams to them.
I do not know what happened but felt I betrayed myself for being too greedy.
So I do not know what was their final decision was.
I still feel as if I was there and I can feel the emotional effect on me.
There were dissapointed in me and felt they made a huge mistake in bringing me there and I felt that they wanted to kick me out.
Perhaps I need to slow down and be patient and not let the power issue or level issue control my motives was the lesson to be learned from this dream?
I wanted so badly to be advanced and to be able to have this power and knowledge. I wanted to be somebody.
I have had several other dreams last night too. But I didn't want to keep focus on this one. I felt that perhaps too much attention on things keeps me blinded.
I have this feel of total disapointment in me. It's like I've been hurt and that I could not control myself.
