Post by Edward on Mar 16, 2006 16:53:57 GMT -5
I was at a local bowling alley that I went to and where my parents had leagues. I was with my friend from Highschool and my current boss. We were bowling with some other people I did not know. I think they were his friends. We are towards the end of the alley I think second to last lane so say if there were 26 lanes we were on Lane 24. We were bowling and we were talking. I was bowling and I started to wonder around. Knowning with all the people there it would take a while to get back to me for my turn. I was by the near by door looking out and I was told it was my turn and that I better hurry up or I'll default. By default I mean there was a clock/timer that was up so that when the timer reached 0 seconds and if your ball had not made contact with the pins then you would get 0 points, kinda like a Gutter ball and the pins would reset. So I was hurrying up and I tossed the bowling ball down the wooden floor and I broke the machine as the pin reseter was coming down. It banged into metal frame. I believe it dented it. We were all like woah. We continued to bowl after after changing lanes. We started to bowl again.
After sometime have passed its my turn again and my boss(marc) said hurry up it looks like the timer is off and you need to hurry up and get that ball thrown or you'll ruin your score. So instead of taking my normal approach I cut it in half and I dont do anything fancey. I throw a straight ball as fast as I could so I wouldnt get penalized. Normally I though a hooking type ball but that would take longer and since the the clock would default me I cut my approach in half and I through it fast. Well the clock timed out when it shouldnt have. Their was one second on the clock still and the pin setter came down just as my ball was strking the pin. Well the one pin exploded from the force of my ball that was thrown. There came a yell down from the main desk of the bowling alley the owner/operator/worker, not sure who it was. It was a short lady I say about 5'6"-5'7". She said that's it your done, your out of here. She is telling me that I am being abusive to the machines and that she will not tolerate it any more. I ask her at this point to look me in the eyes and you'll see I am not being abusive towards the machines. I said I was just trying to get the ball down the alley before I get faulted from the timmer. I said I have thrown the ball each time before the timer was out. The first one was an accident and the second one was not my fault I said. The timer went out on me too fast. She proceeded to give my three dollars backs and I said no, you keep it. If I had been here or 30 mins or less than yeah I could understand but I said I was here for several hours and this is your money.
Then she said I was banned and she said 5 something? I asked one of the people I was bowling with, did she say 5months or 5years? And he replied, 5years. Now There was an older gentlemen in the next lane by himself. I sat over there in shock of everything happening and asked him how long has he been coming here to bowl and he said many, many years. He had a rugged greyish short beard. I said yeah me too. I have been coming here since my parents was in a league here and I remember when there was childrens room at the other end where all the parents would bring the babies and children to play while they bowl and he nodded and I was remembering that at the time. Now next thing I know, I am down at the other end where we gathered to play and were we were stationed while our parents bowled on the league nights. I was playing around like I was a little kid and in fact i was one. I would play with the barn that made animal noises. You pull down the level and it would make a mooing sound and I did this repeatedly, moo, moo, moo. Like I did when I was a kid to hear it repeatidly and then make that moo, moo more musical and do it in rhythems. hehe. Now after playing around in there I started to head back down towards the other end where I was bowling previously with my boss and his friends.
As I passed the main desk, just to the left of it is a main corredor where people would enter. I seen this Black man looking at mean and I heard him talking to some about picking that little kid up as in kiddnapping since I was by myself. I was like oh no I've gotta do something. So I keep walking like I pretend I didn't hear anything, although I didn't expect him to know I heard his conversation since I was a good distance from him but I have very adept hearing. So I am down by were I was playing, looking out the door and watching them bowl. I see the man come down closer to me and I get closer to watching th people bowl and act like I haven't seen him or know he is coming. he proceeds to get near me but about 10 feet away. He goes down the stairway and out of sight. This is when I go to my boss(Marc) and say its me Ed, I need some help. There is this guy after me and wants to kidnap me and I need to leave here now! He says ok, and he goes gets someone he can trust. He gets a lady who is probably in here late 20s and into her 30s perhaps. She has a child that is a girl. The girl seems to be about 5-7 years old. I go to shake her hand. She has tiny hands and when I extend to shake it I see myself having my full figured adult sized hand. I have huge hands by the way and I reach out and shake her pinking because I would crush her hand and I use two fingers to shake and she goes out, you are hurting me. I say, I am sorry. But I am stil in a child image that people are seeing me at this point. So after formalities were out of the way the mother/lady said she would take me out of here and away and we left right away out the front door which was not the main entrace, the side entrance was the main entrance and was the place where the man was standing when I heard and saw him looking my way to want to kidnap me.
So we go out the front door and go out towards the left and go around the side of the building to the car. I put the little girl in the front seat and I get in the back seat. I look the little girls door from my back seat , I look my door and I immediately lay down in the back of the car. I told the lady/mother to go and she goes. She has to drive towards the south end of the building and make her way around towards the exit back where the front door where we just left. At the same time we have to pass the side doors which are the main doors to bowling alley. As we coming up around towards the area of the main entrance I see the Man looking out in the parking lot. He seems to be looking for me I assume. I stay down( It is at this time I notice myself taking up all of the backseat while laying down. I am a tall person and I would take up most of the back seat of this car laying down horizontally) until we exit the place and then I pop my head up a little to see behind us as we travel down the road. He didnt' get into a car and there was no one following us and I felt that I had made it and then I wake right up to my alarm upon my feeling of feeling relieved.
I have some comments about the dream. I think that I was never a kid in the dream just that I projected that I was a kid and that's what people saw me. I make this realization from shaking the hand of the 5-7 year old girl and the feeling of me taking up the entire backseat while laying down trying to hide. It was like I was projecting a mask and I realized the possibilies and the power behnd that. That I projected to people and I didn't realize it at the time I was projecting the image of a child. Someone who is vulnerable and who is innocent. I am thinking it is a sign of many things for me and is multifaceted in its meanings for me. I am going to keep reflecting on it. I feel there are creational issues and soverignty issues at hand here.
Peace, Love and Joy,
Ed
After sometime have passed its my turn again and my boss(marc) said hurry up it looks like the timer is off and you need to hurry up and get that ball thrown or you'll ruin your score. So instead of taking my normal approach I cut it in half and I dont do anything fancey. I throw a straight ball as fast as I could so I wouldnt get penalized. Normally I though a hooking type ball but that would take longer and since the the clock would default me I cut my approach in half and I through it fast. Well the clock timed out when it shouldnt have. Their was one second on the clock still and the pin setter came down just as my ball was strking the pin. Well the one pin exploded from the force of my ball that was thrown. There came a yell down from the main desk of the bowling alley the owner/operator/worker, not sure who it was. It was a short lady I say about 5'6"-5'7". She said that's it your done, your out of here. She is telling me that I am being abusive to the machines and that she will not tolerate it any more. I ask her at this point to look me in the eyes and you'll see I am not being abusive towards the machines. I said I was just trying to get the ball down the alley before I get faulted from the timmer. I said I have thrown the ball each time before the timer was out. The first one was an accident and the second one was not my fault I said. The timer went out on me too fast. She proceeded to give my three dollars backs and I said no, you keep it. If I had been here or 30 mins or less than yeah I could understand but I said I was here for several hours and this is your money.
Then she said I was banned and she said 5 something? I asked one of the people I was bowling with, did she say 5months or 5years? And he replied, 5years. Now There was an older gentlemen in the next lane by himself. I sat over there in shock of everything happening and asked him how long has he been coming here to bowl and he said many, many years. He had a rugged greyish short beard. I said yeah me too. I have been coming here since my parents was in a league here and I remember when there was childrens room at the other end where all the parents would bring the babies and children to play while they bowl and he nodded and I was remembering that at the time. Now next thing I know, I am down at the other end where we gathered to play and were we were stationed while our parents bowled on the league nights. I was playing around like I was a little kid and in fact i was one. I would play with the barn that made animal noises. You pull down the level and it would make a mooing sound and I did this repeatedly, moo, moo, moo. Like I did when I was a kid to hear it repeatidly and then make that moo, moo more musical and do it in rhythems. hehe. Now after playing around in there I started to head back down towards the other end where I was bowling previously with my boss and his friends.
As I passed the main desk, just to the left of it is a main corredor where people would enter. I seen this Black man looking at mean and I heard him talking to some about picking that little kid up as in kiddnapping since I was by myself. I was like oh no I've gotta do something. So I keep walking like I pretend I didn't hear anything, although I didn't expect him to know I heard his conversation since I was a good distance from him but I have very adept hearing. So I am down by were I was playing, looking out the door and watching them bowl. I see the man come down closer to me and I get closer to watching th people bowl and act like I haven't seen him or know he is coming. he proceeds to get near me but about 10 feet away. He goes down the stairway and out of sight. This is when I go to my boss(Marc) and say its me Ed, I need some help. There is this guy after me and wants to kidnap me and I need to leave here now! He says ok, and he goes gets someone he can trust. He gets a lady who is probably in here late 20s and into her 30s perhaps. She has a child that is a girl. The girl seems to be about 5-7 years old. I go to shake her hand. She has tiny hands and when I extend to shake it I see myself having my full figured adult sized hand. I have huge hands by the way and I reach out and shake her pinking because I would crush her hand and I use two fingers to shake and she goes out, you are hurting me. I say, I am sorry. But I am stil in a child image that people are seeing me at this point. So after formalities were out of the way the mother/lady said she would take me out of here and away and we left right away out the front door which was not the main entrace, the side entrance was the main entrance and was the place where the man was standing when I heard and saw him looking my way to want to kidnap me.
So we go out the front door and go out towards the left and go around the side of the building to the car. I put the little girl in the front seat and I get in the back seat. I look the little girls door from my back seat , I look my door and I immediately lay down in the back of the car. I told the lady/mother to go and she goes. She has to drive towards the south end of the building and make her way around towards the exit back where the front door where we just left. At the same time we have to pass the side doors which are the main doors to bowling alley. As we coming up around towards the area of the main entrance I see the Man looking out in the parking lot. He seems to be looking for me I assume. I stay down( It is at this time I notice myself taking up all of the backseat while laying down. I am a tall person and I would take up most of the back seat of this car laying down horizontally) until we exit the place and then I pop my head up a little to see behind us as we travel down the road. He didnt' get into a car and there was no one following us and I felt that I had made it and then I wake right up to my alarm upon my feeling of feeling relieved.
I have some comments about the dream. I think that I was never a kid in the dream just that I projected that I was a kid and that's what people saw me. I make this realization from shaking the hand of the 5-7 year old girl and the feeling of me taking up the entire backseat while laying down trying to hide. It was like I was projecting a mask and I realized the possibilies and the power behnd that. That I projected to people and I didn't realize it at the time I was projecting the image of a child. Someone who is vulnerable and who is innocent. I am thinking it is a sign of many things for me and is multifaceted in its meanings for me. I am going to keep reflecting on it. I feel there are creational issues and soverignty issues at hand here.
Peace, Love and Joy,
Ed
