Dream

[seaoffeeling]

I had a dream last night, which involved the bad man I referred to in my angry vent a few weeks ago. The dream was set in my current work place, where I've encountered stressors/issues that are similar (though not as severe) as the things I had to deal with from this particular man last year. He had never before appeared in my dreams, and even in this dream I did not really see him. I was going around looking for him, I can't remember the reason why, but it was possibly to confront him. But no matter where I looked I could not find him. It seemed like he was avoiding me or hiding. I also searched in a university yearbook of some sorts, and I could only find one picture of him, which was black and white and very blurry. Then I came across some workers who were being mistreated by another individual. They were meeting secretly to decide what action to take against the individual that was mistreating them. A few of them were scared and didn't want anything to do with this and were about to leave the meeting. I then took the floor and tried to persuade them to stay. I told them they needed to stand up for themselves, and used my own experience with that man as an example. Anyway, in my dream, I left the place of work, as though my job there was done. I proceeded to go to my high school reunion and, I believe, actually enjoyed myself. I woke up from this dream with the feeling that maybe not seeing this man in my dream meant I have released most of the issues/feelings related to him. This has been the most significant (in a bad way) relationship of my adult life, which is why I feel this dream is particularly important. This relationship forced me to confront many of my demons, which were brought out by his own demonic behaviour. It's had a lasting emotional impact on me (I think for the worse, actually), but I felt rather peaceful I must say when I woke up. Or rather, it didn't seem to bring out as much of the anxiety and other painful emotions as I would have expected. Anyway, I'm curious to hear what others' take is on this.

Thanks!

-SeaofFeeling

[Sowelu]

(((((Hiya SeaofFeeling!)))))

I had a very interesting experience in working with this dream, so I thought I'd share it. Each time I would attempt to do an interp, I would either become very tired so that I couldn't stay awake, or I'd think of getting back to work on it and feel a strong sense of "no", or I couldn't access it here on the board, or locally on my computer!

I'm honestly not sure why all of this has occurred, SeaofFeeling, but one of the feelings I have around it is that you are perfectly capable of gleaning your own meaning from this dream, and that's the most important interpretation there is, you know?

I am typically quite open to share my insights on a dream, and this time was no exception... until I actually went to make the effort. So... maybe you have an idea why...? Or maybe we'll never know.

Either way, I'm open to further discussion if you'd like, I just wanted to let you know this much.

Love you! (((Hugs)))
Sowelu

[seaoffeeling]

Hi Sowelu,

Thank you for letting me know what was happening. I feel a bit bad, because of what I think may be part of the reason why you felt resistance against going there. But first, I agree that I think I may have interpreted correctly myself, as I had woken up with the feeling that I had let go the bulk of the unresolved stuff. The fact that I was looking for this person in the dream and could only find a faded black and white picture suggested that there was not much remaining in my subconscious that required processing. Plus, I have been doing some healing work lately, and it would make sense that the unresolved energies would be released. The reason I had requested outside input was because I have discovered in the past that I'm not so aware of my underlying feelings as I had previously thought

Anyway, in regards to why you felt a resistance, I think it has at least partly to do with the entity who came into my life and the energies associated with him. I say entity, because until I met him, I had believed that all human beings were inherently good, deep down. This individual shattered that belief, and I'm not going to euphemise or apologize for what may seem like an archaic belief: I came to the conclusion that he was truly evil at his core, a devil if you will. Unlike all people who had hurt me in the past, I could not find any redeeming quality or anything that would mitigate or explain his actions. And believe me, I tried very hard to find it.

Anyway, this is my guess as to why you felt resistance in going there. I don't know if it makes sense to you, but in any case I think it was right and for your own self-protection. I definitely wouldn't want anyone to be even remotely affected by the energy left by this entity, so no interp needed.

Lots of love and ((((hugz)))) for trying. You're wonderful!
-SeaofFeeling