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Post by dee on Oct 17, 2006 7:39:54 GMT -5
I am noticing one thing, which is a lot of self doubt keeps bubbling to the surface for me today. I was on the couch waiting for my daughter to finish brushing her teeth for school, and i caught myself randomly thinking "what if all this is a farce? what does that mean for me spiritually?" and then I heard/sensed my higher self saying "Child why do you doubt yourself? Is it not possible that you feel nothing out of the ordinary because you have been in this energy all along? Do not doubt yourself - you are already there..." It made me tear up. Now I just want to have a quiet day of reflection. MirRa i'm glad you are feeling so much Love - I send you some more Love  Will check in again later. Oh I have to admit this before I sign off - there is a part of me, inner child part I think, that is half expecting myself to go NUTS at some point during the day, as the magic photon belt switch is flipped on, and my emotions become a million times stronger. It isn't a fear i'm feeling, but a nervousness. Ugh. Ok so its bringing up issues of self doubt and fear.  |
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Post by ADMIN on Oct 17, 2006 10:14:07 GMT -5
Oh man! Talk about being challenged.
There is nothing that will alter my soul today, I don't care what challenge they hit me with.
If I can keep control today, then from here on I can say that I have finally set in place what I have been preparing for all my life.
This may be as you say Dee, but it 's also the mind which makes it real and when we accept it manifests.
Well, I had a challenge hit me in the face and I stood my place, cool,calm, and collected.
It came in a angry outburst from a file clerk when I told her to do something in the files.
She burst out that she was tired and fed up. She really took me by surprise with the reaction, but then again I stood calm and felt compassion as I saw myself in her place.
The funny thing I observed that the way I saw her must be the way others have seen me when I would get upset.
And to be honest, I didn't like what I saw and thou the impression I had of her changed now that I saw here true colors.
Since now we can't put on the mask, I imagine that which is behind the veil is being revealed.
I truly feel compassion and I hope those whichever I have offended in the past, have the same compassion for me.
We can also practice sending LOVE thru the heart chakra and healing energy for those who are struggling with anger and fear.
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Post by dee on Oct 17, 2006 10:23:53 GMT -5
(((((((MirRa)))))))
Destiny's are coming full circle into the light today.
I wrote this a while back during my meditation session. I was riding the bliss vibe in such a beautiful way, and I have to admit, I can't shake this feeling of all encompassing love and wisdom!
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Post by Cherubtree on Oct 17, 2006 10:26:02 GMT -5
Hi Gang: I started feeling the energy this am at 2am...my cat woke me up howling...they are so sensitive to it. I always feel things early...but I think, I too...will make it a day of mediation and positive thought. Much Love, Spirit |
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Post by LilliHart on Oct 17, 2006 13:32:16 GMT -5
I want to post this thing I just wrote. Today has been challenging and enlightening so far and it's only 12:30 in my time zone. I'm going to lunch with friends. This came out of me a little while ago in response to where I have been all morning. I'm sure there will be an update later. but for right now...I FEEL GOOD and I still want to cry...maybe a little gratitude, maybe who knows what? LOL and COL
Love,
Lili
Why am I sad? Why do I want to cry? Today is supposed to be the day of peace, joy, harmony and love EARTHWIDE. Is this a lie? I am supposed to feel those things, deeply and project them to my SELF and to the world. Why can’t I seem to do that, believe it, work it today?
So many others have also felt sad these last few days too. Why did I wake up with a huge pain in my back and hip? I didn’t do anything to hurt myself, at least I don’t remember that but there it is, just like before, so many times before. And I am grumbling and grumpy because of it. So many things have hurt and I have been depressed and why? I can’t remember a reason…I am sad by default, by habit by comfort. It’s a cozy and familiar place in the rush of the world.
Even lying in bed didn’t help my back until I asked and was reminded that all realities exist, all probabilities and possibilities exist and I just have to choose the one I want. It’s too hard! Even when I choose nothing changes, why?
So I asked for help, I called some friends and asked for distant healing. I asked my guides for help and they told me to choose what I wanted? I chose, I wanted to go to lunch today with friends and celebrate the peace, love and joy that I am supposed to feel…but I just can’t quite figure out how to feel it right now and I am sad and want to cry…and my back hurts and the dogs next door won’t stop barking and for some reason the kid is home from school early and playing his damn drums. Why does this all have to happen today?
I wanted today to go so smoothly, so joyously and be so uplifted and yet, this is all happening. And I am reminded that it is I who am creating it with my attention and my feelings of discontent.
I decided to go to lunch, to BE WELL to FEEL good in my body. I pretended until I did and I sat there putting on my make up and asked myself why I still wanted to cry and then the lightening bolt hit me.
The thought entered my head that made me see my life flash by my eyes and all the things I had to do to believe I was unloved and unlovable…to give me the reason the excuses that filled in the spaces and the crevices along the way that explained to me so well the reason for me feeling like this, so sad and separate and alone and unloved and unlovable. I needed my pains to cover the truth.
And all the depression and the sadness, the aches and pains, the excuses the fat that covered me with reasons to believe in the illusion that I was not good enough, or clever enough, or pretty enough or enough of enough and then I knew that I had chosen them…all of them to convince myself and fill in the blanks of the little girl’s mind and convince her too that all these things were OK because I felt I was not enough and unlovable.
But it was all my choice, even the excuse that I was but a child and how could I know. It was by design, my design, before, before when I was not in human form…to try me and mould me and shape me and help me to burst forth into the being of light that I am and remember that it was all a lie, a huge, laughable, cryable lie that I created and conceived to cover up my true self to test me to see if I could crawl out of the falsehood and stand in the light of I AM and be the light and the way…for myself to follow back to remembering my part of the game.
It was all a life, one I chose and designed to build my fortress and the mote which I lived behind and nearly drowned in when I came forth. It was the game, the illusion I called life, my life. And now I am laughing and hearty, joyous laugh because I have looked in the mirror, literally and seen the truth…again.
And I have remembered and take my stand in my wholeness connected to all that is, was and will ever be because all that is, was and will ever be is actually me!
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Post by ADMIN on Oct 17, 2006 15:33:13 GMT -5
Dee!
Beautiful!
everything is a gift!
Being here at this moment is a gift given to us, se can make a difference.
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Post by ADMIN on Oct 17, 2006 15:51:41 GMT -5
Lil, I also felt like crying today, but you know what? I'd cry for joy even thou there was a moment I felt sad and felt crying for sadness. But I made a choice, why be sad when I am here now doing what I signed up for up. I feel like a Hero, I have made it this far and I feel blessed that I am still here. Someone has to do the job! LOL! I loved your post. I feel ya honey and knowing that those body aches mean something that need processing. About 3:PM EST my left knee came in with a huge pain block. I think with this energy coming in and where the body hurts may be telling us what we still need to work on. My partners back went down last night as well, This link is good: users.ritternet.com/jobrien/chak.htmlI checked my knee: KNEE (#10)Main Chakra Contains a Being in charge of monitoring the bodily functions and transmits the findings to the Higher Self and All That Is. Seems I am having problems transmitting! LOL!  |
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Post by LilliHart on Oct 17, 2006 16:16:13 GMT -5
Hi folks,
Well I went to lunch with my friends and we had a great time...great vegetarian Chinese food, 6 people for $35 and we have more food that anyone could eat. $6.00 each...my kinda meal!
We all had fun, laughed and shared about today. We were all Heros MirRa because we have all made it this far. I shared what I wrote above with my friends at lunch and sniffled a little but in the end I'm still here too! LOL
My back feels much better, still a little twinging but not anything like when I was caught in it.
So the rest of the day is still ahead and I'm looking forward to explarin gand experiencing it with joy and peace, harmony, abundance and a good laugh. We have a meditation at 5:00 and then go to a talk on ET's tonight. Should be quite a trip. Or I could just stay home quietly but that's my ususal and I want to repattern and do something in/with community to celebrate being able to keep the light shining bright.
So I envision all of you also shining your lights, honoring yourself and doing whatever you WANT TO DO THAT GIVES YOU JOY AND PEACE.
Love, Lili
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Post by dee on Oct 17, 2006 16:31:14 GMT -5
Well today went sour quick... chaos erupted at our second chat, and a known trouble maker in the past is now presenting loads of trouble on my forum. While we're trying to squash that, we get two spammers out of nowhere posting really GROSS pornographic pictures on the site. So i've had to shut my site down to guest viewing for now. What next ? lol |
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Post by LilliHart on Oct 17, 2006 17:19:49 GMT -5
What next ? lol Dee, You asked the question and answered it yourself...LOL that's what you have to do. Remember you invited and created this experience. So much is coimg back now from our pasts to be re-examined by us. So keep on LOL. Love, Lili |
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Post by dee on Oct 17, 2006 20:58:03 GMT -5
It worked itself out nicely. I got a lot of crap off my chest, got to ban the trouble maker for the last time, and then went and enjoyed our 8pm chat. All in all a roller coaster day, but much was released. |
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Post by ADMIN on Oct 18, 2006 12:56:10 GMT -5
MATRIX BLOWN BY COMIC TRIGGER EVENT? Posted By: X_Hermes <Send E-Mail> Date: Wednesday, 18 October 2006, 3:46 a.m. I was surprised to see that the KP index during the ‘Cosmic Trigger’ period was about as low as it could be (see www.sec.noaa.gov/rt_plots/kp_3d.html). The time period is really very noticeable for its very low energy. I suppose I had expected a big surge in energy, since that is what you might well infer from an energy beam being connected with the planet. Then, I remembered that someone – I think it may have been Greg Braden – said, a few years back, that all the old negative thought forms that together controlled much of our thinking were attached to the ley-line grid, from whence they are continuously feed into our mass consciousness. These programs therefore form a key part of the old, controlling matrix. This appears broadly analogous to disc storage to a computer, continuously refreshing a program into the processor to be run. It also means that the ley-line grid has been perverted to act as a physical part of the planetary control matrix. (Good article on the Ley grid at www.championtrees.org/sacredspace/leylines.htm) Greg Bradon (?) also said that if the ley-line system were ever to be switched off (in his scenario as a result of ‘zero point’ being reached), then these programs would all start to dissipate, and many (the most damaged) could not then be reconnected. The burden on humanity of much negative programming would thus be partly or wholly removed. The ley lines are energised by a combination (interaction?) of the Earth’s magnetic field, and incoming energies arriving from the cosmos at large. They have, themselves, been going through a huge transformation, evolving to a system which contains a number of twelve-pointed earth-stars (but that is another story). As the ‘construction’ has proceeded, many individual ley-lines have switched off for a short period, but never the whole system. SO: here is a key question: WHAT IF the incoming energies during the cosmic trigger event had the effect of nullifying the ley-line system for a few hours? Might this be why almost nothing was recorded by the KP index when we might have expected the very opposite? Logically, if the theory of the grid being the energetic ‘home’ of our reality’s negative programming is correct, then at the least some, and possibly all, of this programming would be destroyed, and unable to reboot into operational form again. My pendulum (used in conjunction with a 0-100% chart) indicates that this is indeed what has occurred. It would seem that the negative programming emanating from the grid has been reduced by about one third during the cosmic trigger period. Since we are told that there will be a number of other such trigger events, my sense is that each one will reduce this old store of control software further. This is a very sensible route, since removing the whole lot at one go might well leave us all extremely disorientated – and create yet another opportunity for control at the hands of the old guard. I am sure that the trigger energy has many other functions that we may not get to fully understand. At least there is this possibility of an understandable effect on the ley-line grid. The next stage of our evolutionary jump has started. Let us trust we can all just enjoy the ride! X-Hermes |
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Post by LilliHart on Oct 18, 2006 23:09:26 GMT -5
This is a possibility but a more likely scenario, based on my guides telling me is that:
1. The energy surge was in another dimension, one that is not measurable by our science. Even the astrological events of yesterday were mundane and not particularly interesting.
2. there was no actual energy surge, violet light proton band, etc and that it was a 'rumor' started by someone, albeit a cool rumor and it took us all by storm, fit in perfectly to our construct of what we would like to happen and that we all bought the farm and went out to milk some cows and think good thoughts while were were gettting squirted in the face.
But does it matter is the bigger question? I don't think so because we all took it seriously and it was a good and beneficial exercise for many of us in experimenting with our ability to manage our feelings and our thoughts and make conscious choices about how we wanted to feel in our realities and how we wanted to view our lives in reference to those choices made.
Transmute was the word for the day for many, many people. And many people had a damned hard time with the disipline of it but many of us were ablet to hold the line and stay on focus which is really what mattered in my humble opinion.
A tarining exercise for us to shift and pivot away from the garbage that is out there doing it's best to pull us in the dumpster with it. If you managed to stay out of the dumpster and mostly even out of the kitchen garbage pail you did well.
I fell into the little bathroom trash can late at night last night after a day of holding my own and staying on center. Finally, I felt so bad physically that I yelled f*ck it and let go and collapsed in a heap of pain and frustration. I blew my stack and decided it was ok and then i went to be and didn't sleep. I continue to process stuff all night long and even this morning was still toe deep in the doo doo.
but as the day went along I was able to correct my course and get rudder going again. And THAT is the lesson. To be able to have your observer observing and calculating corrections by dealing with whatever comes up, owning it and being true to it no matter what it is and then adjusting after transmuting the gunk, dealing with the feelings and moving forward into another choice that is most probably out of our comfort zones.
As a result of working through the process I managed to create a nice new segment in life and manifest a new opportunity that I have been wanting for a long time which was mostly unatainable until now.
So my creativity was stimulated and I was able to pull together different pieces of a puzzle whose parts I was missing previously because I just wasn't there yet.
For me waht matters is not whether there was a proton band that wacked the earth and created this huge energy from OUTSIDE ourselves...what mattered/matters is that I believed I had the opportunity whether it was from my idea or a group mind, that I could make changes within myself that would be deep enough to take me to the next level. And with that belief I was able to fly into another place with my heart and thoughts all attached and well oiled.
Did this come from outside of self? Who cares? There isn't anything outside of self so wherever and whatever happened it was a good thing...at least for me.
And with that babble thought I bid you all good night!
Lili
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Post by ADMIN on Oct 19, 2006 9:50:03 GMT -5
WHY ARCTURUS BEAMED SO MUCH POWER TO EARTH ON 10-17 Posted By: Ladyhawke Date: Wednesday, 18 October 2006, 6:29 p.m. Yesterday, it is believed over one million people around the world participated in a groundbreaking meditation event. On this Solar Alignment with the star Arcturus on 10-17, humanity was given the opportunity to help clear control patterns of old polarized belief systems. Arcturus beamed ultraviolet transmuting light to planet earth with a magnification power of 1 million times. This is what empowered our meditation for the 10-17 'Cosmic Trigger Event.' The scientific supportive evidence is in ... WE MADE A DIFFERENCE. Please read this report by XHermes: www.rumormillnews.com/cgi-bin/forum.cgi?read=94632 There will be future Cosmic Events coming up in which we will also be assisted in clearing the path for our ascension. The Creator and the Universe are working in concert right now to make this happen. Things are moving very quickly. Just observe the signs. At the link below you will find accurate planetary/star sized models which illustrate the relative relationship between Earth and Arcturus. This helps clarify 'in a tangible way' why Arturus is capable of beaming in such a powerful energy field to our little planet. The first picture at the link below is that of our own Mother Earth with the other terrestrial planets. Mercury, Venus, Earth and Mars all have solid land mass. The other planets in our solar system do not have any land, they are gas planets. The second picture shows the relative size of those gas giants. The third picture shows the relative size of our Sun to all the planets in the solar system. The fourth picture gives you an idea of the size of the star Arcturus that beamed the ultra violet light to Planet Earth yesterday. LH Here are some pictures to inspire you: www.rense.com/general72/size.htm |
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