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Post by bluerose on Sept 12, 2004 19:33:47 GMT -5
[glow=blue,2,300]I want to apologize to everyone. I have been in a real funk lately and I could come up with a million reasons why, but it doesn't make it ok for me to be so cynical and judgemental of anyone. I have been shitty in here lately and I finally AM sorry for it. I don't know what the hell is going on with me, but I have just been in a really offensive place for a week or so now. At first I didn't care, I guess that was part of why it was so easy to be such an ass, but I really don't like it anymore. I don't like being cynical. I don't like being judgemental. I don't like being disgusted or annoyed. I don't like any of it and I don't want to do it anymore. I don't really know where to go from here, but thanks to this forum, I have a place to wander freely into the vastness of infinite possibilities and do so safely. So, I am sorry to you, if I have offended you in anyway.[/glow]  |
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Post by Lunaria on Sept 12, 2004 19:53:57 GMT -5
Ascension symptoms or any number of things could be going on.
Your okay, Jenn.
We all go through shitty moods.
Luv, Lun. 
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Post by Nicole on Sept 13, 2004 11:05:22 GMT -5
Ditto!
And I'm glad you got to express here too - I could feel the burden being lifted from you. You go girl!
Love!!
Nicole
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Post by seaoffeeling on Sept 14, 2004 15:54:58 GMT -5
[glow=red,2,300]Hi Jenn!
I say embrace it all! Embrace your dark, your light, accept everything as part of you. There is no good or bad anymore. Good for you on continuing to release, process, understanding, and experience everything.
(((Hugs)))
-SeaofFeeling[/glow]
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Post by ADMIN on Sept 14, 2004 17:52:20 GMT -5
BlueRose,
I understand where you are coming from, I also feel very agressive and defensive lately, it's like don't come and sh*t on my parade, do it to yours!
And so you know that you are not alone and I think many of us here feel the same and this is an opportunity to bring up all these issues that we have deep down in our core center.
I am sorry too!!!!
I am so sorry for all those I have hurt unknowingly in this life and in any past life!
We are learning with every experience...
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Post by rainbow on Sept 14, 2004 20:50:36 GMT -5
Oh Jenn.
I just caught this thread.
I knew I was picking up
on something from you on
the ascension board. That's
why I had mentioned the
Reiki attunements
and kundalini. It can all make
us feel out of sorts. Not to mention
ascension or even just part of being
a woman. Having a sh*tty time.
Life in general. and... and...
well darn it....(((hugs)))
(ps trying to be a little cute here)
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Post by bluerose on Sept 14, 2004 21:23:02 GMT -5
[glow=blue,2,300]Thanks everyone for all your comments.
I feel like it all just has to do with what Sowey (and so many of us) have been feeling lately. It's like "somethings in the air" making for unrest.
Unrest where no answers are good enough and all our questions only lead us in circles. I could ask WHY a million times and it all comes back to "SO WHAT" or "THEN WHAT?" What's the purpose? What's the meaning? What's the goal? How is this doing any good for me or for anyone else if NOTHING MATTERS? And even if I stopped chasing my tail I'd still have all these questions and unaccaptable answers!
How can it be that I have choices when all the choices I make get me NOWHERE and all my attempts to follow through with anything I choose fail? "because it's not meant to be?" then what the hell is meant to be? It's no fun anymore pretending I have choices and making all the "wrong" ones because nothing gets anyone anywhere. EVER.
This is all creating, as Sharon said so perfectly, lack of faith and hope.
And Rainbow, I have no clue what you are talking about with Reiki and Kundalini. It doesn't seem to apply in any way. I went to someone for reiki 3 years ago and the time before that was like 6 years ago and the experiences I had with them have nothing to do with any of this.
It's kinda crazy, so many of us are in the same boat without a paddle! LMAO! So what do we do? Pretty much the only thing we can do, like Sowey said, just talk to each other about it. I guess cause it just gives us something to do!
::sigh::
....the thought just came to me, that this is very different from a typical "clearing" we generally do of our own personal issues. Maybe this is something on a grander scale - like some sort of collective clearing of something since so many of us are feeling this.
Interesting!
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Post by rainbow on Sept 14, 2004 21:56:10 GMT -5
Jenn,
Because of the clearing,
cleansing and healing that
happens with Reiki and
kundalini. ok not helping
the cause any. Not another
word. I just like to be
understood when trying
to be helpful.  We gotta all
hang in there!
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Post by seaoffeeling on Sept 14, 2004 22:24:34 GMT -5
[glow=red,2,300]Hi Jenn,
I think you've hit the nail on the head. This unrest is happening en masse. I participated in an energy group in August, and the same thing happened to people there. It's like an unfinished business, a gaping hole in a project undone, with the blueprint missing. Emotionally, physically, mentally, spiritually, things are off. And the inner sense of knowing, the connection to spirit is not there the same way it was before.
The things that use to satify and pacify no longer work. It no longer helps to know if something is an ascension symptom or not, what the origin of certain experiences are. What does it matter whether a cigar is just a cigar or something else? Does that change anything? I think we (as a group) are experiencing a shift within ourselves, a shift in our own consciousness as a sub-group of individuals living on 3d earth.
Anyway, I don't mean to take away from your emotional clearing, and I apologize if it comes across that way. I wished to address something in your post which seemed important and very relevant to what is going on here.
-SeaofFeeling[/glow]
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Post by bluerose on Sept 14, 2004 22:44:34 GMT -5
[glow=blue,2,300]Whoa! Yes! YES! YES! (funny, I went to a Yes concert last night ::giggle: But yes, Sharon! Things that used to work just no longer do! So maybe this is just a beginning phase in a new way of living. Very interesting! I could definitely see that. Sharon, you are incredible! Ok Rainbow, I see what you mean. That does make sense, though it just doesn't feel like it "fits" in this particular situation. Thank you again for clarifying. I'm sorry I've had to ask you to so many times lately. [/glow] |
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Post by ADMIN on Sept 15, 2004 8:40:36 GMT -5
[glow=purple,2,300]SOF, I think you have really put into words how everone is feeling. Just last night I spoke to Lun on the phone and shared that I was tire and bored and waiting on for some thing bigger, new direction, a new phase. The answers do come eventually when we stop trying to persue them for this has happened to all. We sometimes demand answers now and when we let it go, the answers come at the time they are suppose to and when we are ready to understand them. [/glow] |
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Post by bluerose on Sept 15, 2004 8:53:13 GMT -5
[glow=blue,2,300]It has been seeming for me and many others lately though that those answers are not good enough. It's still the same old cycle. I referenced this in the "respect the vent guidelines" thread, and now am wondering once again, "SO WHAT?" So if this is the limbo we are in, how is it different from any other limbo and what happens when we cross into the new anyway? More drama? The same old cycle in a new place? The questions are continually never answered purposfully ENOUGH. Yet, here we all still are....IN the middle of it and a part of us somehow knows it's ok otherwise we would all be far crazier than we are! LOL! So here we are.....[/glow]  |
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Post by bluerose on Sept 15, 2004 8:55:25 GMT -5
[glow=blue,2,300]It's philosophy!
This IS the frustration that comes from any philosophy class merely BECAUSE the questions are unanswerable![/glow]
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Post by ADMIN on Sept 15, 2004 9:09:33 GMT -5
[glow=purple,2,300]BlueRose,
You said:
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[glow=purple,2,300]I do think that with every new phase new questions arise and new unasnwered question do come along with the lesson. This is a school.[/glow]
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Post by bluerose on Sept 15, 2004 12:33:14 GMT -5
[glow=blue,2,300]Yeah, I guess you're right. ::sigh::
Guess we just have to suck it up and trude through it forever - learning learning learning learning and going to new nowheres while we're learning. LOL![/glow]
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