Lost

[rainbow]

I feel soooo lost.
Like a lost sheep.
Is that an Ascension
symptom?

[Sowelu]

(((Hiya Lotus Child!)))

I would definitely say it's a symptom of the process of growth. It's a very consistent, cyclic inner experience for me. Over and over. It seems to correlate with each new "rung" of the ladder of awareness we graduate to as we work to pierce the veil.

In other words, each time I clear a previous level and energetically shift, I'm back to a sense of disorientation and that feeling of being "lost". In a short time, I catch my bearings at the new level, do whatever needs to be done internally, open to whatever new awareness is available for me, and I make my way to the next level... where I start out feeling lost again.

In my experience, at any rate

With love, (((Hugs)))
Sowelu

[Lunaria]

I feel alone.
Ppl have left my life one after the other.
But I keep busy writing short stories and poetry.
Then it doesn't feel so bad.

[Nicole]

Sounds like my and Shaun's life Lun. One after the other. I know it's for a reason but doesn't feel so good sometimes

[Lunaria]

Must have to do with the separating of the dimensions.

[Nicole]

I think so. And the gaps between us and them seem to be getting wider by the day. It's not that we dislike any of these people at all. What we do mostly is grieve for the old relationship. But at the same time, we know we can't possibly go back to that relationship because even if they're not, both of us are so different. Shaun was just saying at lunch today about someone that "we're so far past them" in the way we are that we couldn't possibly have a close relationship. Not meaning it in a bad way, just that we're so different. It is sad for me and him though.

[rainbow]

Sowelu,
It seems to keep getting
harder and harder. Hopefully
one day it will start getting
easier. This time around seems
to be really a hard hitter.
((((hugs))))

[rainbow]

Lun, Nicole,
I feel alone a lot. Have my
whole life. Yet some how in
a very strange way I feel as
everyone is watching me,
waiting to see what I will do
with them knowing what's
going on and me not having a
clue. lol!

[Nicole]

I know how you feel Lotus Child! I think most of us here have had that experience. We always knew we were different even though we did fit in sometimes

[seaoffeeling]

[glow=red,2,300]I don't know if I'm lost or not. But then, maybe that means I'm lost!

-SeaofFeeling[/glow]

[Monikah]

Lotus, you said: <<Yet some how in a very strange way I feel as
everyone is watching me, waiting to see what I will do with them knowing what's going on and me not having a clue. lol! >>

LOL indeed. How very true. You KNOW they're watching very closely, as this experiment comes to an end and people's choices are so very important. You have no idea how much upstairs is learning from us and relies on us for knowledge of this experience. Sometimes I tell 'em to get a life instead of being such voyeurs. ;D But we are their life.

Love,
Monikah

[Sowelu]

Lotus said:

Sowelu,
It seems to keep getting
harder and harder. Hopefully
one day it will start getting
easier. This time around seems
to be really a hard hitter.
((((hugs))))

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Man can I relate, Lotus Child! ((((Hugs))))

I'm in one of those states right now myself, and it's a tough one. The further along I go, the less I appreciate any possible reason for all this crap, though. I seem to get more and more negative the more stuff I clear, simply because I feel this "BY NOW..." thing that says, "By NOW I should at LEAST have a better clue!"

Anyway, you're not alone. We're lost together! *weeeee* ain't it fun?

With love, ((((Hugs))))
Sowelu

[Lunaria]

YA! Fun!.
At least we have each other.
I never did fit in my whole life.
;D

[rainbow]

Sowelu,
I'm thinking I need to do a
little more physical exercise
and enlist some good music
to get my energy going. That
maybe it will help move this
on through. Maybe it just
needs a little help. Well maybe
a lot of help getting through.
I've been examining it all too.
You would think a lot of it is
not necessary. But then I think
about the fact I don't really
understand the dynamics of
clearing lifetimes of stuff. But
think I'm feeling it. ;D It's a
comfort not being alone.

[glow=pink,2,300](((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))[/glow]

[bluerose]

[glow=blue,2,300]Hi Lotus Child,

It does get easier. It gets much easier and it's ALL OK.

::HUGS::

Never have I ever felt so "found" in my life than I do now. Believe me. [/glow]