Post by whitequeen on Jun 12, 2004 21:36:41 GMT -5
Hi everyone,
I am having the craziest and most peculiar symptoms (sx) and want to share them with you. It's very confusing and a bit scary actually.
I've been around this stuff for a VERY long time in this life and there is not much I haven't seen or experienced up to now. Every ache and pain and physical problem you can imagine or list I have had at one time or another.
Mostly I have been able to synthsize or overcome nearly everything. Have been doing DNA reprogramming and recoding for at least 20 years and believe I am close to being 'there' and complete; but...
this stuff that's now occurring which started the moring of the Venus occultation on June 8 is really bizzare.
For the last several days I have not been able to understand much of what people are saying to me either verbally or in print. It's like English has become a foreign language. I can read the words and say them but don't understand what many of them mean; or more to the point, don't understand the underlying meaning of a post that someone writes to me. I feel like an idiot!
And there's more...
Tonight I took my kids for dinner and while waiting for a table we sat in the car. I was watching a woman smoking a cigarette as she stood on the curb and suddenly she became completely transparent and I watched the smoke streaming through her body, bloodvessels and lungs. It was poisoning her and I said out loud without thinking first that I wondered why she was doing that. It's like it was the first time I ever even thought the thought.
Now I used to smoke and the idea of being poisoned by a cigarette is not a new one to me, Susan. But this was so bizarre that I can't explain it. There have been quite a few instances where I felt like I was in a foreign country and couldn't grasp the customs. My kids looked at me as though I were complete nuts. And they are awake Indigos that are quite aware of their mother's idiosyncracies. They both even know I have a soul braid and a walkin living in here with me. As a matter of fact my son is the same and stil they were both amazed at my odd responses to everyday things.
I have had psychic site for a long time but not like this. I mean I literally saw right through that lady as though she were one of those clear plastic lab manequins with all the veins and organs etc that you find in science class. And what's worse is this feeling of not knowing where I am or being able to understand people speaking to me. If I didn't know better I would say I developed Alzheimers over night, but I have my memories and I am speaking lucidly now as I write this so I know that 's not it/
I've had a walkin here for many, many years living side by side with me, Susan, but she also has had no trouble understanding things. I wonder what the heck is going on.
Has anyone else had this kind of experience?
And... there's more. I have been feeling deeply saddened and depressed in the last few days too. Like I am going to have to leave, transition... not kill myself in an earthly way, as I think I may have inadvertently implied in another post; rather like it is my time and I have spent my energy and have to go. That's the only way I can say it.
I keep thinking I have to move but that is not an option for many reasons especially financially and that I have to stay at the same time. I keep thinking that what I am doing is all wrong but then am told I am doing ok and need to stick with it.
It's like the entire universe of polarities is attacking me. That's it! I feel like I am under attack at some deep seated level and am having to synthsize and amalgamate all these polarities all at once and it's not for me.
So, I'd like to hear about anyone else who is experiencing this level of chaos. I've usually been the only one who goes through this shit when I go through it. It's like I do it first and then others bring up the rear. It's always been that way. Like I have to go it alone and then teach others how to cope; but shit, I can' t cope now myself.
Glad to have this board to express this absolutely set of crazy symptoms to and get some feedback.
WQ or who knows?
I am having the craziest and most peculiar symptoms (sx) and want to share them with you. It's very confusing and a bit scary actually.
I've been around this stuff for a VERY long time in this life and there is not much I haven't seen or experienced up to now. Every ache and pain and physical problem you can imagine or list I have had at one time or another.
Mostly I have been able to synthsize or overcome nearly everything. Have been doing DNA reprogramming and recoding for at least 20 years and believe I am close to being 'there' and complete; but...
this stuff that's now occurring which started the moring of the Venus occultation on June 8 is really bizzare.
For the last several days I have not been able to understand much of what people are saying to me either verbally or in print. It's like English has become a foreign language. I can read the words and say them but don't understand what many of them mean; or more to the point, don't understand the underlying meaning of a post that someone writes to me. I feel like an idiot!
And there's more...
Tonight I took my kids for dinner and while waiting for a table we sat in the car. I was watching a woman smoking a cigarette as she stood on the curb and suddenly she became completely transparent and I watched the smoke streaming through her body, bloodvessels and lungs. It was poisoning her and I said out loud without thinking first that I wondered why she was doing that. It's like it was the first time I ever even thought the thought.
Now I used to smoke and the idea of being poisoned by a cigarette is not a new one to me, Susan. But this was so bizarre that I can't explain it. There have been quite a few instances where I felt like I was in a foreign country and couldn't grasp the customs. My kids looked at me as though I were complete nuts. And they are awake Indigos that are quite aware of their mother's idiosyncracies. They both even know I have a soul braid and a walkin living in here with me. As a matter of fact my son is the same and stil they were both amazed at my odd responses to everyday things.
I have had psychic site for a long time but not like this. I mean I literally saw right through that lady as though she were one of those clear plastic lab manequins with all the veins and organs etc that you find in science class. And what's worse is this feeling of not knowing where I am or being able to understand people speaking to me. If I didn't know better I would say I developed Alzheimers over night, but I have my memories and I am speaking lucidly now as I write this so I know that 's not it/
I've had a walkin here for many, many years living side by side with me, Susan, but she also has had no trouble understanding things. I wonder what the heck is going on.
Has anyone else had this kind of experience?
And... there's more. I have been feeling deeply saddened and depressed in the last few days too. Like I am going to have to leave, transition... not kill myself in an earthly way, as I think I may have inadvertently implied in another post; rather like it is my time and I have spent my energy and have to go. That's the only way I can say it.
I keep thinking I have to move but that is not an option for many reasons especially financially and that I have to stay at the same time. I keep thinking that what I am doing is all wrong but then am told I am doing ok and need to stick with it.
It's like the entire universe of polarities is attacking me. That's it! I feel like I am under attack at some deep seated level and am having to synthsize and amalgamate all these polarities all at once and it's not for me.
So, I'd like to hear about anyone else who is experiencing this level of chaos. I've usually been the only one who goes through this shit when I go through it. It's like I do it first and then others bring up the rear. It's always been that way. Like I have to go it alone and then teach others how to cope; but shit, I can' t cope now myself.
Glad to have this board to express this absolutely set of crazy symptoms to and get some feedback.
WQ or who knows?
I do them lying down. It's as though I "unseat" the energies stuck there by doing this. After a short bit of that, I stay lying down and meditate a bit. The energy from that lower region then seems to rise upward and releases when I have a few heart palpitations.
